I was reading my past diary entries just now. As in my written diary. And I was laughing at the hilarious things I wrote in it. Like how I spelt Filza's name as FILZAH. And the thing about OBS and many many.

Keeping a diary is a good thing. And yet can be a bad thing as well.

These memories are playing like a film without a sound.

As I read, I began to wonder why people tend to say things they don't mean to do. Why even bother saying it when you're not sure whether you will do it or not.
I asked my friend this some days back before and he said sth like:
"Some people just say things for the sake of entertaining."
Which I thought makes perfect sense. Like they just say things for the sake of saying, and making you happy at that instant, feeding you with lies that will never happen. Did they ever consider the hurt it may bring in the future? I doubt so. So what should we do? Stop believing, stop trusting? Maybe. Only then you won't feel any hurt.
And I just don't know what to believe in anymore-

Anw, my younger bro was being random just now and told me he had this weird dream about talking to some cat. And I was like huh? He then hurriedly added that it's the cat who started talking to him first. HAHAHA.
And he said it's my fault coz I told him that if you think rubbish whole day long then you'll have rubbish dreams. Which is true to a certain extent, coz dreams reflect what you think about most.
Dreams are your greatest wishes and greatest fears.

I've always wanted to be an only child. Coz I'll get more peace and I don't have to share things. But now, I think I'm happy that I have a sibling. Though my brother can get real annoying sometimes. Still, I feel that I can relate to him the most. And yarr, I just realised that he actually cares a lot about me. Like he's always trying to make me laugh and everything. Some weeks back he actually said something to me which kind of surprised me.
He said:"Jiejie arh. How come today I never see you smile at all."

That made me realise how much he cares. And yea, he's a great company to have around. Like how I can always sing random songs infront of him then he'll start trying to sing along as well, and how I play the piano and he hums along too.
Okay, I better treat him better. HAHA.

3 more days left to study for MYE. ohmy lahhh. If I can't survive this time round then I only have myself to blame. Oh wells.