HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOCTOR!!

We celebrated Doctor's bday today. All of his classes. Went to the staff room after school and sang birthday song for him followed by giving him presents. Hahaha. And people were shouting "Taupok" here and there. And poor doctor was so scared. Haha. Oh. And get well soon doctor. [If you're reading this. Haha.]

GP court trial today was so so funny.
GM APPLES + Cheng Yew (Prosecution Lawyer) + Louis (Defence Lawyer) = Rubbish + Crap + Shoutings in class

Went for Council Investiture today.
JJ invited us. Hahaha.

It was fine. Just wanted to see how the 6th council is like.
Hmmm......
5th council was good. Though not perfect, but it was a great job done.
Could see some of them tearing on the stage during the video sharing and everything.
And you could feel yourself empthasing for them.

I'm freaking tired now.
No idea why also.
Think maybe it's because I walked under the hot sun for so long here and there.

So many things to do and so little time.

Oh. And today's the last day we ever touch chem SPA. Yayness. (:

Okay.
So in the end I spent my afternoon queuing for Ben and Jerry's ice cream. HAHAHA.
For the fun of it.

We ended school earlier than usual coz of cancellation of this and that, so a few of us headed down to Downtown. It was so retarded I tell you. Coz when we reached downtown we got news that there isn't free cone there. [Stupid Melvin gave wrong info] The scene was so funny laa. We just wanted to see the place for ourselves even though we know that chances are that we're not getting our ice cream. Hahaha. Then the guys were crapping about how we should buy a cone and pose with the cow and send mms to Melvin they all so that they'll rush to Downtown. HAHA.

In the end we walked all the way back to White Sands and started queuing.
The queue wasn't that long laa. Many exaggerated. Got our cone in 51mins. Hahha. The sense of satisfaction. (:

But still I'd rather pay $4.90 if I didn't have to queue.

Chem SPA tmr.
Tried cramming everything into my head just now. Hope it stays. Then it's bye bye bye. (:

Tomorrow hurry come.
And I hope Thursday doesn't end.

Ohhh.
And that 7pm Channel 8 show is so nice! Last episode already.
Damn sweet laa the male lead. I don't think there's many out there who can love the other party the way he did. To give wholeheartedly and just wanting to give happiness to the other. Damn sweet.
But no. I'm not jealous. Hahhaa.

Tomorrow's Ben and Jerry's free cone day.
But no. I'm probably not going to waste my time queueing up. I rather buy them.
I told Melvin that and a whole lot of nonsense came from him.

He was trying to act out the scene.

Melvin says:
u force the person sell u la
Melvin says:
den the person say BUT WE ARE GIVING OUT FOR FREE
Melvin says:
U: NO I WAN TO BUY THEM
Melvin says:
BUT THEY ARE FREE TDY
Melvin says:
NO I WAN TO BUY THEM
Melvin says:
THEY ARE FREE
Melvin says:
NO I WAN TO PAY FOR IT

Full of crap laa. Hahaha.

I can't wait for wednesday. End of chem spa, then next day holiday. And weekends will be coming. Wheee.

Maybe our hearts have the same favourite colour
and found each other that way-

[I've decided to put the piano version up instead coz it seems nicer. Haha.]



Gosh. I've been addicted to this song since yesterday.
The tune is a little boring.
But I like this kind of slow slow tunes.
Emo to a certain extent.
Actually I like the lyrics better.
For its emo-ness. Haha.
A lot of abstractness here and there as well.

Took the old tkgs route back home just now.
Nostalgia. It was raining. Plus I was playing that song over and over again.
It's been such a long time since I sat on the bus like that.

So many things to do.
I better start working on them.
Chem SPA this wed. Scary scary. :/
On a brighter note, this is the last time we're touching chem SPA and we can laugh at the J1s. HAHAHA.

再说我爱你
可能雨也不会停

Is it human nature to be greedy and not be satisfied with whatever one has. Fighting constantly for more?
Random question. I was reminded by that stupid comprehension we did during gp 2 days ago.



Sometimes you just tend to sidetrack.
Sometimes stupid things happen and you get your emotions all mixed up.
Like you suddenly have no idea which way is the correct one.
Left right center.
But somehow. The heart and mind just knows. That whatever emotional rollar coaster you've been on, at the end of the day, it's back to the same place.
Like the swing. However high you swing, forward or back, ultimately it'll stop at the same place.

Because that is where you're needed the most.



Eh. Please don't come and ask me what I meant and everything.
Because I have no idea what just went through my mind a few seconds or minutes ago. Like seriously.
Sometimes I just type and type without understanding what I'm talking yeah.
And oh. I tend to forget abstract stuffs very very quickly.
HAHA.
I've a weird, warped sense of logic.

I was so tired the past 2 days that I actually wanted to come online BUT I ended up falling asleep on my bed.

Thursday was.... Errrr. Chem test. Horribly done. Careless-ness all over and we got back our results on the very same day as well as a tongue lashing from Dr. :/

Yesterday was fun to a certain extent.
Class was quiet due to absence of some people and CY was feeling tired. Haha. And 16 people out of 26 had reasons not to go for econs writing practice after school. The rest of us stayed in school till 2.35, went to the LT only to see very very very few people. And we sat at the bottom of the LT refusing to move to our seats and kept saying:"Wrong LT" to the people who came in. Haha. In the end after we got our scripts, 9 of us went out of the LT from the back. LOL. Reason mainly nothing about econs was in our brains and we'd be wasting our time stoneing there right?
Eh. My first time skipping lecture in my entire mj life.
But we did go and find Ms Loh after that to tell her but she wasn't in so... hahaha.

Went LT2 to watch Hotel Rwanda instead. Genocide. Gruesome but a very nice show. lol.

Sang birthday song [belated] for Danial after that and passed him his presents. It's like.. 5 days after his birthday already so he was pleasantly surprised receiving it. Rushed the frame during the 3 periods break after school. The end product is pretty pretty nice. I love it myself. (:


(:

Went out to airport to study today. Wanted to do more things but I ended up doing a little only. Know why. I stupidly left the whole stack of other school stuffs at home. Oh yeah. Plus my calculator. So I practically had to use my handphone to calculate. Oh wells.

I seem to like to observe animals. I should become an animal researcher or something. Look at this. It's so cute laa. HAHA.


And the weather's freaky nowadays. Blahh. I think the world is coming to an end soon. And I was telling Charlene that I don't want to live till that old because living conditions are pretty bad now right. With the stupid weather and all the weird viruses spreading around. Haha.

So many many many things to do. :/

And so today I'm finally back in school.
Helped the class with 2.4km timings in the morning.
Our class girls did pretty well.
All the best for the guys tomorrow.

ISIS portal is rubbish.
Pissing me off.
I typed that bloody thing for don't know how many thousand times and it still doesn't show up.
Argh.

Chem test tomorrow.
Die die die.
Haven't been touching ionic for a long long time.
And I'm in no condition to study as well.

Dr was telling me just now when I met him at bus stop on the way home: "Okay or not. Don't stress yourself out laa."

Hahah.
Oh and today.
Charlene, Jean and Fil kept making me drink water. Especially Char.
And in physics tutorial you could see half the row of us drinking water together. HAHAHA.

Sheesh. So many things to copy.
-Faints-

The rate of me falling sick fell from once a month to once every 2 weeks.
Gosh.
I realise girls at my age seem to be falling sick more often. Like suddenly. Like my friend's friend suddenly has cancer. And a few more cases as well. Weird.

2 weeks ago I was down with throat infection,
and just yesterday my parents had to bring me to the A&E unit at SGH in the night.
Had severe stomachache and I couldn't even walk more than 10 steps without feeling like fainting.
At the hospital, I was confined at the isolation ward with a mask coz I was running a fever. Then I was wheeled to the critical care unit on wheelchair and then got a place on the bed. Haha. And I had to be put on a drip. I was tramatised when they poked the needle in can. The doctor was laughing at me coz I was so scared that I anyhow answer her questions.

After giving me 3 bags of water or whatever you call that, my blood pressure was still very low and the doctor wanted to hospitalise me for further investigations. [Blood test everything was okay] But I didn't want to stay. It was so uncomfortable sleeping there can. And so scary also.

I was there for 4hrs I think. Reached home at 1am plus.
Left my phone at home and I've got like 7 miss calls and 8 new msges. lol.
You know the weird thing is.
When I first went in I was damn giddy and my blood pressure is 94. Then after 3 bags of drips, my BP went down to 84 and I was feeling better. LOL.

Hahaha.
This is like something I'll never imagine myself to be in. I don't ever want to be back there. So scary.

And my brother just told me that he wants learn ballet.
HAHA. He says like v. fun. Think he's kidding.



Sometimes you have to get to know someone really well to realize you're really strangers.

Colloseum has finally ended.
Thought it would be a boring day.
Some parts were boring but overall it was more fun than last year despite us sitting at the field.

Oh. And the school even went to drastic measures to make sure we don't pon - They locked up the gates and planted security guards at every possible place.
Smart right.
And in the end we ordered kfc delivery. lol.



So funny laa. [Ohmy. And I just realise I caught Jean's unglam-ness on the pic too. LOL. OPPPS.]

I think throughout the day we kept walking around, mainly the field area. To view the competitions and everything on the track and field. And we actually cheered like nobody's business. Such sudden enthusiasm. Kept sitting down on the field as well. There you see 4/5 yellow figures in a circle in the middle of nowhere. Like we were in our own world. lol.

And so Atlas got last. But I think we did a rather good job. Like cheerleading 2nd and the runnings and everything were fine as well. And we had fun. HAHA. (:

So morale of the story: Do not be sad that you're last or 2nd last because sitting at the field is actually better than at the gallery.


Waa. I look retarded.

Now I'm tired. Sleepy. Burnt after being in the sun for so long. And my left thigh hurts I don't know why. Maybe I haven't ran for so long. Then today run around a little more than usual then yeahh. :/

Oh. I almost forgot about class debate during GP.
The other group went first. So had a fun time watching them.
As quoted from Charlene's blog:

"Debate in class was... HORRIFIC. Ahahaha. Nah, it was dead hilarious, especially when you have speakers like Jin Jian, Louis and MELVIN (a.k.a potato) and Cheng Yew as the time-keeper. There were eraser-throwing, shoe-flinging, constant shouting/ screaming of decibels that exceed far beyond what is allowed for the average human being. Poor Mrs. Seng. Poor us ....."

[I'm too lazy to type what happened.]

Debates are fun. I like to argue the points. BUT I don't like to speak.
Next monday's my group with Charlene's. I think it'll be as horrific. Or maybe even worse. Hahaha.

I'm feeling freaking tired now.
Even though it's a short school day.

Lots in my life.
School. Friends. _______.

I realise I'm getting very easily irritated as I grow older.
Like if my brother irritates me a little I'll just snap at him. Something like that.
Hmm. PMS? Maybe. Maybe not.

As you grow up you tend to be faced with more issues.
Which is true. But no one can avoid them. That's when you must learn how to cope with them.
If you give me one thing which I can choose in my life,
I probably would just choose to have a house along the countryside near the sea, and then able to grow my own vegetables and food with someone I can spend my life with.
The 21st century is... -speechless- Stressing? Ugly?

"The city life is becoming more unattractive. Discuss."
The topic I chose to write in the recent essay attempt during gp.

Randomness.

Sometimes I wonder why people always like to pintpoint at others' faults and neglect their own faults while there are others who only blame themselves for anything wrong and not look on the larger picture.
Yeah.
And maybe we should just all do abit of both things.
Before one say anything about others why not look in the mirror and reflect if one's at fault too. And if after reflection one still can't find any fault in oneself, maybe it's time to change a mirror.
Lame.

I'm actually a very very really very complicated person. If you think you know me well, think again. So. Whenever someone tells me after they've known me for barely a month how much they can relate to me, I'll just say "oh really, okay." because I know they don't really understand me. Even people whom know me for years still may not be able to. When I say understanding it means knowing what I like/dislike, knowing my character [Which is really tough], knowing when I'm sad or whatever even when not showing it [as tough], stuffs like that. So far in the past 17 years of my life, people who understand me I doubt hit 10, or even 7. Know what. Even my parents don't understand me. Sad but yeah. And I can tell you without hestitation that the number of people who understands me perfectly is only 1. For the past 17 years, after being in contact with soo many people, there's only 1. Not that I'm complaining or anything. But I never thought that I would find anyone who can relate to me so well. Know why. Because it takes a very very really very complicated person to understand another very very really very complicated person. And for the first time in my life, I experienced for myself the feeling of not being alone even when you're alone. Because you know that there's someone out there who really understands you. And I don't know. I think that's just all it takes to make someone feel less lonely. I don't know how to describe the feeling, you just have to experience it yourself.

I don't think I'm making sense but yeah.

And oh.
A word of reminder. GP is crucial. So please. Brush up on your arguments. Because they're seriously out of point.

And when the day is bad,
I take comfort in knowing that You and you are there. Never forsaking.

Stayed in school after chem to play some intellectual card game [Can't remember how to spell it. Tried goggling the game but I can't find it.] with Fil, Jean and the guys. It may seem boring BUT no, it's fun. Don't know why also. HAHAH. Need to strategise and all that shit.

OH. And out of 8 people, I won! HAHAHA. (: (:
lol. Out of luck. Because they were all attacking Danial and they forgot about me. lol!

I can't wait for the weekends to come.
Like seriously. I don't know what I look forward to, except weekends and the nightime.

OHHHH.
Today my block area practically FLOODED.
Was on the bus home and it was pouring heavily. Reached my stop and to my horror, the bus stop was flooded. Like seriously flooding. All the way to my ankle can.
This is probably the first time I see such a sight. In a way it's a very funny sight, IF I'm not the one in that situation. Haha.

Okay. Now I have nothing to blog about.
I should just leave my blog to rot or something laa.

"A soul mate is someone that makes you feel complete."
But how do you feel complete? HAHA.

Random blabbers.
Bleahh.

This song is rather sweet in a certain way.
STARDUST.
GO watch go watch!
I like the star. She's so so pretty laa. Haha.
And she looks so cute when she glows.



Today's a sian-ed day.
Blah bleah.
Life nowadays is like some monotonous shit.
And it's times like this when you wish you didn't have to grow up so fast.
I miss my childhood days where I just do stupid things with my cousins.
Oh wells.
Life goes on.

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... "
-Stardust.

Whee. Bought Stardust vcd and watched it just now. Haha.
Yeah it's nice.
Though half the time I wasn't sure what they're talking because there's no subtitles. Haha.
The ending is rather unexpected but sweet. (:

I'm feeling horrible now.
Think I sat too long infront of the com.
Better get off it.

Studied at East Point with Fil and Charlene.
QUITE productive laa. [Considering that I always waste my afternoons away. Haha.]

And we ended up visiting Pet Safari 7 times. [Or is it 8.] HAHA. Once with Charlene and Fil, the others with Fil. Filza and I are like so obsessed with the dogs and cats and rabbit and hamsters. HAHA. The person must think we're mad lah. Keep coming back from morning till night. lol!

We named it Ball ball. Coz it's like a ball. Haha. So cute right. (:

Fil's favourite. It looks like some soft toy if it's not moving laa.

Oooh. And all the other cute cute dogs. Haha.

Shall post some random photos. Finally transferred them over from my phone.

JJ's xmas bday present. HAHA. Guess what is it. [Clue: Starts with a 'B', ends with a 'R'. LOL.]

(:
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Had fun sitting down and talking and laughing about random things with Fil after Charlene left. lol. So funny laa, some of our topics.
People were walking past and staring at us like we're idiots who have nothing better to do.
If only we have to time to talk and talk and talk for the whole day. Oooh. So fun. (:

10 Things about Charlene Judith:

1) Bunny-like looking.
2) SMART
3) Likes powdered green tea.
4) Brings weird things to school to eat. [Eg. One loaf of GREEN TEA bread and munch on it.]
5) Brushes her teeth every meal.
6) Looks innocent and guai BUT is not.
7) Always correct people's english.
8) Laughs over everything.
9) Laughs over nothing.
10) Has a great friend named FELICIA who listens to her whine and whine about the same old thing.

THERE.
I blogged fabulous things about you.
Hahaha.

15 x 60 = 900
5 x 60 = 300
3 x 60 = 180
0 x 60 = 0
YAY!

That's what Charlene and I were typing on the GC during chem lecture just now. It's the number of seconds left to end of lecture anyway. I can't seem to go through any chem lectures without feeling like sleeping. And the ironic thing is we're right in front. Weird.

And so I can't believe it's thursday and it means I've survived through this horrid week of school! -claps. (:
This week is really really long. I feel so tired after every day. And I've been dilligently completing my tutorials and everything. Like yesterday I managed to complete 2 things in an hour, and the day before 3 things in 1 hour and a half. I realise that after 10pm my brain just shuts down.

PW results out tomorrow. I want an A. Like who doesn't.
OH. And I felt damn happy when JM was telling me she has to do PW. hahahaha!!
Like woahh. PW is such old news laa

I still owe Mrs Seng 4 weeks of article review. :/
And I'm feeling so so lazy to do it. Gahh.

FINALLY watched Raise Your Voice.
After like so so so long.
Haha!

Teared at a few parts.
I'm surprised by how they can come up with a movie which incorporates loss of a family member and also portray the love and passion people have for music.

Shopped at parkway with Charlene for 2 hours.
That woman has a obsession for earrings. Haha.
Gary shouldn't have shift there can. Argh. Temptations.

And so it's the end of weekends.
I dread school lah.
Monday - 5.05 end school.
Tues - 4.15 [coz Mr Patrick make us come back for extra lesson]
Wed - 6 [CCA]
Thurs - 5.05
WAAA. Sian. Thank God Friday's a declared holiday. That's something to look forward to.

This morning I was woken up by beautiful voices horrible singing of from some people in my block at frigging 8.30am.
Okay. Maybe it's not that early BUT it's still early to me.

I think they just got a karaoke set or something. Because they have been singing every weekend. Oh. And the same old song over and over and over again. Blasting their bleahhh music and shouting at the top of their voices.
Someone should tell them they're tone deaf. Like seriously. It was that bad.

And there was this time, I heard a guy shouting "Shut up".
HAHA.
[I did too actually.]

AND. At like 7pm plus they started singing again.
Oh wow.
Maybe they think that we'd thank them for the beautiful sounds. Yeah. Thank you very much.

If they lower their music maybe I wouldn't be so pissed. But omg. No. They were like seriously blasting it at full max.

See. The house is no longer a conducive study area.

And just awhile ago, a group of kids were shouting from the ground floor up to some friend of theirs asking him to come down. Hello. Do you not know what a phone is. Must you create unnecessary disturbance. Ever considered the implications?

Ignore me please. I'm in a bitchy mood.

Oooh. It's the weekends finally. (:

Feeling blahhhhh now.
It's just one of those days when you feel downright sian.
Not emo. Just sian.
Maybe I should go play the piano.
Found the scores for that jay chou nice nice song which I still haven't really gotten sick of till now.
Hopefully I won't feel so bleahhhh after that.
It works you know. Especially when I'm angry or anything. I'll just bang bang bang on the piano and it just feels so much better.

Today school was like a total waste of time.
First period maths tutorial. Mr Patrick didn't come. Free period. Then 2 lectures. Last period was GP. Mrs Seng didn't come. So it was like free period also. -_-

I'm sleepy. And it's like 3.40pm only.
So many things to be done.
GP reading. Chem tutorial. [And I still don't really understand the stupid buffer] Econs question. Anymore?

Was reading up on defence mechanisms of the brain earlier on. Coz I remembered I did come across this article about Sigmund Freud. [That was like 2 years ago btw] Can't seem to find it but I found some interesting stuffs.

One of the defence mechanisms is repression.

Repression: The process of pulling thoughts into the unconscious and preventing painful or dangerous thoughts from entering consciousness.

"Freud notes that the motive behind forgetting is similar to that of repression--it is the removal of objectionable material from consciousness. Thus it is often that case that an associated bit of information is also forgotten."
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Okay. The above summarises to one thing. Have you ever at times felt that you can't seem to recall painful incidents of your life. Like one moment you're starting to recall the painful memories and the next moment you find yourself not able to remember anything about it. And it gets so tiring to think. Like sudden memory loss. This is repression. It's like a protective mechanism the brain has to protect your emotions in a way I guess.

But btw, I think repressed memories will tend to show up in your dreams. Coz I think I read before dreams are a way to let out your unconscious thinkings. So you won't go crazy? Haha.
This is how complex the brain is. Psychology is so fun. I really really want to take it up in uni. I even thought of doing a minor in psychology next time. But well. For a practical path, of course I wouldn't take it.

You know. Once you've set your mind in doing something,
you should not keep wavering. So yeah.
The day is finally here.
How did we end up like this.
I have no idea how many times I've said this.
The important thing is not why.
But rather how could I have been so giving, so blind.

And now that it's gone,
it's like it wasn't even there at all.

It's almost a year. The end is near. It's enough already. You've held on enough.

Besides, there are reasons to do so now.
My heart feels peaceful suddenly. I think it's the instrumental I'm listening to. Haha.

Oh wells.
Enough nonsenses.
I've wasted enough time here. It's 4.30pm already!!
Btw, Today is something to look forward to. (:
040408-

And so I spent my entire day SLEEPING at home.
No school.
Had throat infection.
Nice nice doc gave me 2 days MC but in the end I did go school today.
Yepp.

Hmm.
And so just now on my way home from dinner at grandma's I was thinking about the scholarship talk earlier at compass.
And well. It got me all afraid of the future.
Like how much I'll miss JC lifestyle.
And how uni will be like for me.
And IF I'll even get into a uni.
And whether I should live in a hostel.
And if my room-mate will be nice.
And if I'll fall sick like once every month, but this time far far away from home.
Argh.
Don't you hate it when you have so many questions and there's no answers?
Haha.

Okay. So I should just stop thinking about all the uncertainties right. Like... So what if you keep thinking about it. Might as well use the time to WORK ON YOUR STUDIES.
Yes I should work on my studies. Gahh.

Oh. And just now on the bus there's this super annoying guy behind p[with his friend] who keeps singing and singing like he has the most wonderful voice in the entire world. Gosh. Then this small little girl beside me, she turned around and stared at him to shut him up. Next time, unless you're very sure you have a very good voice, please do not create public disturbance. And even if you're sure you have a good voice, it's good to just shut your mouth and don't disturb others yeah.
I may look nice and innocent and whatever, but people who gets on my nerves, you'll be sorry you did.

My throat hurts again. And I'm sleepy.

And you know what.
I realised.
Now, what the hell did I realise.
Oh. that something not in sight you can actually throw it far far away from your mind.
And I guess that's what you do when you want to forget about something yeah. And sooner or later you'll be able to.
It works all the time you see.
At least that's what I hope.

It doesn't matter.
Just continue living your life the way it is.
Gosh. I don't know what on earth I'm talking.
Must be the throat. Somehow it affects your brain as well.
Oh wells.
Random blabberings.

Quick post.

I still have the stupid physics SPA skill A report to rush by today. And I've no idea how to even start the experiment.
You know. I'm the type who has difficulty in following the instructions on a given experiement and yet I'm supposed to come up with my own experiement from scratch now. How wonderful.
And oh. I just received a mass msg saying Dr wants us to hand up our chem equilibrium worksheet on thurs. Which is 2 days later and I'm feeling sick all over now. Coughing like mad and I think my lungs are getting painful [Yes Charlene. I rememeber now. It's "My legs are so painful." and not "My legs are so pain." HAHA.] Plus I've been suffering from throat pain ever since sunday. Gosh.
):

Hmmm.
Oh.
Happy April's Fool.
I managed to trick ppl like errr. Kewei, Charlene, and Daniel. [My OGL] HAHAHA. I can't believe Daniel actually fell for that. Isn't it like obvious I'm lying. lol!

And did you know that if you get 2 or 3 Us and above for block tests, you'll be suspended from school? Some of my friends were informed already laa.
SO SCARY RIGHT.

Anw. I was just joking. Haha. Eh. Some people fell for it okay. I'm a good liar ehhh.

OKAY.
I'm so irritated with my throat. Bleahhhhhh.