I'm tired tired.
But just feel like blogging.
I'll feel weird if I don't blog you see.

Fil just sent some photos to me we took a few days back.
So yepp.
Let the pictures do the talking. (:



I'm tired.
I think I say I'm tired in like every post I blog.
HAHAHA.

OHOH.
AND I JUST REALISED STH V. FUNNY.

I think I'm so obsessed with pw that..
I EVEN DREAMT ABOUT OUR DEAR MR JEAN PIAGET YTD NIGHT.
hahaha!!
Zomgg.
I can't rmb excatly what was it about.
But I do know it's something to do with him.

Ohmy you!
You're the last person I want to appear in my dreams.

Imagine him in your dreams.
Omg omg omg.
NIGHTMARE I TELL YOU.
Eh eh. I had enough of you alright.
One more week. One more week and no more you and your cognitive theories and impacts to the education system.
HAHA.
So please
DO NOT appear in my dreams again. Anymore. (:
Thankyou so much.

As usual,
I'm tired by the time I reached home. ):
HAHA.

Went school early in the morning for dry run yet again.
Gosh I am so so so so SO sick of PW can.
One more week only and I can't take it anymore already. ):

Watched Fil and Jean's group present today.
Damn funny lah Jean's group.
They had this mascot thingy and Puay Kai's the mascot. HAHAHA.
So funny. And we - mainly me, Fil, gay, Jin Jian and Cheng Yew - started whipping out our phones and started taking photos with the mascot behind when it was getting ready to go out for its turn. HAHA.





So fun lah. HAHA. Like a group of kids wanting to take photos with the mascot. lol. (:

Then then we [Fil, Keyi, Quek and I] met up with Fad at White Sands for dinner. Laughed like siao at KFC. Super cold as usual there.
Talked blah blah. HAHA.
So fun. Yet another tkgs outing. lol.
Everyday is a tkgs outing we realised. (:
Oh. And just now when we were walking out of the side gate, we saw Clarissa and co and we realise that the whole stretch is all tkgs ppl. hahaha.
And there was this time long ago when the whole toliet was filled with tkgs ppl. Like about 8 I think.
And. Almost everywhere I turn in school, I see tkgs ppl. [Not including those in my class] I'm serious. HAHA. (:
MJ is like populated with us can. lol.





Oh wells.
I so hate PW.
Argh.
Alright. I'm tired.
Tmr's rest day.
Finally. (: (: (:

I miss all my friends!
I miss ppl like...
SJ, KD, SAB,
BESTFRIEND, YQ,
FAD, HUANGYU,
STELLA, SHUZH, EVE,
STELLA [TJ], WANJING, SENG YONG, DANIEL [OGL], TIMO,
and many many more!

OMGGG.
After this horrendeous PW we're so going to meet up I tell you.

Ohyes.
And Keyi.
Started sms-ing me random pick-up lines. HAHAHA.
So funny lah she.




Something I did out of boredem just now.
My photoshop skills are getting more and more horrible I tell you.
I like how the picture turned out when it was taken.
V. blurry and everything.
HAHA.

Alright.
I'm out of here.

Oh.
And I malu-ed myself a lot today.
HAHAHA.
Not going to write here what happened. Want to know what ask me personally. Selected ppl can get the answers only though.

I'm so tired now. I'm like forever tired.
Brain shutting down. Actually it's in screensaver mode now.
Ah wells ah wells.
I better go sleep soon.

If you love and care abt someone,
Don't lose grip on that person
Coz' you will never know
The one you let go
Might be the one
You have waited all your life

Hello hello.
I'm in school canteen now and using Dung's laptop. HAHAHA.
Hmmm.
I'm so damn bored I tell you.
Stupid IT dry run. Gahhh.

The canteen's so bare now and it feels quite cool to be observing things from a side, and you can do whatever you like and nobody cares about you. HAHA. Okay I'm talking crap.

Anw, the WWW is quite boring you know.
I got nothing to do except researching on ppl who seem to be damn interested in me for God-knows-what reasons.
Nahh. Kidding. I just made that up. No one's stalking me I hope.
Okay what the hell am I talking.

I predict this post will go away soon.
Coz I'll be deleting it.
Maybe maybe.
But if you're still reading this, then maybe I'm just too lazy to do so.

And I really think I should bang my head against the wall
and maybe I'll feel better.

I was reading 2 years ago February issue of Readers' Digest.
And I saw this quote under the Valentine's section:

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give - which is everything.

OMGOMG.
And I just read this article on how these 2 person were forced apart for like over 24 years yet their love still stood as strong. Can you imagine that. Not seeing someone for 24 years and yet still love that person so so much and having faith in him/her.
This is so touching I tell you. Gahh.
If only my love story is as nice and heartwrenching like this.

You know.
I used to think how nice it is if my love story is happy yet sad.
But of course happy ending laa.
Isn't that so romantic.
Haha.

Had lunch with my Aunt and cousins just now.
Then went pooling and played that PhotoHunt thingy.
Damn funny laa. My stupid brother went to press the 'male' section when prompted by the machine. Got 3 cateogories I think. 'Female', 'Male' and one more I don't know what.
Then that is to see what kind of pictures you want for the PhotoHunt.
And he thought that is
"Are you female or male."
So he pressed male.
HAHAHA.
And out came all those weird weird photos. Seriously damn weird and funny in a weird way.
You should go and see them for youself and you'll get what I mean.
The process was so hilarious.

*Photo flashes out*
Pris: WALAO. HAHAHA.
Gary: HAHAHAHAHA.
Me: What the heck is this can. HAHAHA.
Bro: HAHAHAHA.
Gary: Eh eh hurry don't get distracted.
Gary: HAHAHAHA.

In short, we were like laughing our way through the thing. But not bad can. Spent like 20cents only and we were entertained for 50+ stages of that thing.

I'm quite dead.
Today's Sunday.
Tmr got OP dry run with Ms Pang and I still haven't finalise my script yet, put it onto cue card, edit my slides. Re-read on our favourite theories of Jean Piaget in case Ms Pang shoot questions and I don't know how to answer them. Oh. And I haven't memorised my script. HAHAHAHA.
And I'm going out soon.
Hmmm. How dead am I.
Not feeling the stress. At most come back then burn midnight oil.

At the rate I'll fall sick soon.
Been sneezing like hell ytd. ):

Okayokay.
I'm out off here.

This is going to be a boring post.
Coz I don't know what to blog about.
Hmmm.

Wanted to go to my mum's company's clubhouse to pool with my bro.
But in the end there was a function there,
which means can't pool.
And my poor bro was so sad.
HAHA.
Seriously arh. I sometimes forget that he's 12 already.
I keep thinking he's forever in P3 laa.
Still acts like a small kid can.
Give that I'm-going-to-cry face whenever something doesn't goes his way.
I feel like just telling him:

Eh. Grow up laa. Things are not going to go your way everytime and now that you're getting over, it's going to be worse. So whatever that happens in the future, just accept it.

Hahaha!
If only I can tell that to myself and ACCEPT whatever I've said.
Hard but possible.

Sleepy.
I'm forever sleepy I realise.
Full Metal Alchemist is nice nice nice.
Rewatching the DVD these few days. HAHA. (:

And yes.
I finally cut my super duper long nails.
Feels lighter and weird now. lol.

I think my brain is like a broken vcd player.
In the sense that the play button can just go off without me pressing it.
Everywhere I go I can link them to you.
Even places like Clarke Quay where I haven't really been there before can trigger thoughts.
Maybe one day the disc will be so scratchy that the visiual effects will become blur.
Or maybe one day it'll break.

This JJ song has been playing on itunes for the 15th time I think.
Put it on repeat mode. HAHA.
Damn nice I don't know why.
I think JJ's voice is one of the best chinese male singer I've heard so far. V. nice.
I tell you my boyfriend must be able to sing.
Everyone can sing actually.
But of course must be in tune.
And preferbly nice tone colour.

I miss choir.
Kind of regret quitting it.
If Kd was still in mj, I'd have stayed on.
Oh wells.

I'm so drained now.
Today's a laughing day.

Went school coz we had to go school to collect our results. After moderation, my chem jumped from S to an E. But not fair can. Fil's chem from U to E. HAHAHA. But I'm fully promoted lah. As in the status. So that's the difference as pointed out by Mr Cha.

Ohoh!
Mr Cha Mr Cha,
we're going to miss you!!!
I HOPE THAT YOU'LL STILL BE OUR CT NEXT YR
but chances are low. ):
Oh no. ): ):

Stayed back in school and slacked as usual.
Waited for Ying Qi for like.... 3 hours? She had OP dry run. LOL.
Oh. Did I tell you what I've doing for the past few days in school?

1. Watch Keyi's group dry run.
2. Play piano in hall.
3. Watch Keyi's group dry run.
4. Sleeping.
5. Watch Keyi's group dry run.

I just realised that's what I've been doing. HAHAHAHA.
I watched Keyi's group dry run like 2 times ytd and once today and one more earlier in the week I think.
I STILL CAN RMB THAT KEYI'S THE FIRST SPEAKER, LOUIS'S THE SECOND, PANG'S THE THIRD, LJ'S THE FOURTH AND CHEE XUAN 'S THE LAST.
And I think I still roughly rmb the contents.
I THINK. LOL!

This is so funny.

Went KFC with Fil, Keyi, Atiqah and Ying Qi for lunch just now.
tkgs. (:
Laughed like siao.
And I stupidly drank Quek's mountain dew by mistake.
HAHAHAH!

Then then Fil and I went Hamizah's house to meet Fad, Jean and Elis.
HAHA.
Met Kewei and his friend downstairs her house.
The scene was so funny.
Fil and I were at the playground there and then we walked away to go find Hamizah's house.
Then Fil received a msg from Kewei: "Eh why you all leave the playground."
HAHA. Then we found him. lol.
Watched Princess Diaries2 and then ate Canadian Pizza.

*Last piece of pizza*
Me: Eh who wants to eat my share.
Fad: (Immediately) ME!

HAHAHA! Greedy Fad.
Oh and we were watching this TV show on channel 8 about food.

Elis: Eh Fad you understand the show meh.
Fad: As long as it's food I'll understand.

LOL!!!
Joker lah Fad.
Camwhored. Laughed and laughed.
I love my tkgs friends. (:

OH.
AND on our way to the bus stop,
Fil and I had to walk past this damn errie and dark path around TPJC coz the path is like surrounded by the fence of the school and trees alongside the road. No lights somemore. Then that stupid girl suddenly just said it feels scary and I felt the chill as well.
And I just grabbed her arm and we just tried to shout random things to calm ourselves down and continued walking and walking.

Me: EH! SHUT UP. SING.
Fil: ERRRRR. SO SCARY.
Me: SHUT UP. BORN OF A VISION TO BE THE BEST.....
Fil: *NO SOUND*
Me: EH TALK!!
Me: ______!!!!!!
Fil: ____ ___!
Me: _____, _____, _____!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fil: ____ ___!!!!!

And we finally reached a point with lights. Laughed like idiots coz we acted like idiots just now, calling out random names of random ppl. HAHAHAH.

Yepyep. (:

More time to ponder.
I think I got everything sorted out already.
I hope.
What I really decide to do about it doesn't depend on me.
If something is done soon, then I'll go with that,
but if something is not done soon, then I'll go on with that.
Eh. Maybe you want that.
So we shall see yar.
We shall wait and see.

I haven't been writing in my written diary for 1586273 million years.
I'm serious. I think the whole of October. Haha.
I tell you.
I must start writing again soon.
For I'll seriously go crazy if I don't write out my deepest thoughts.
Just imagine everything kept in that head up there
One day it's going to shut down I tell you.
Like computer crashing.
I can't tell anybody
and all I can is to write out everything.

Slacked after OP in school today.
Blah blah blah.
And I was saying they should have Nitenbird! So that I can virtually take care of a bird in my DS! HAHAHA.

My entries are getting more and more boring can.
Gahh. Sorry if this bores you out. For nobody asks you to come.
I'm feeling so sleepy now and I can't think properly.




Found this in BESTFRIEND's blog. So cute and true.

Can you believe I actually forgot that today's my brother's bday.
What a bad bad bad sister I am.
Eh cannot blame me right!
I didn't know what date it was today!
lol.

I'm tired.
I need to sleep.
PW's killing me.

And today.
Intended to have breakfast with Keyi, Fil and gay.
In the end Keyi overslept so she didn't come.
And Fil was late.
And I was late as well.
And I msged gay to tell him I'm going to be late.
That gay's telling everyone the wrong version of the story. Exaggerating everything only and making me seem like the bad person. ):

(sms)
Me: Eh. I'm going to be late. HAHA.
Dung: I knew it. I'm still at the hostel now.
Me: HAHA. Keyi overslept so she's not coming. Filza will be late I think.

Reached the bus stop and I called gay.
I was like only 10mins late can!
And we went Macs.
Sat down there and he said he got stomachache coz he slept flat on his stomach ytd night.
Like which idiot does that right.

Told him to go buy food coz I ate at home le. (I forgot to tell my mum I was eating outside.)
And he gave me that stupid look and dragged me all the way up to join the 208 ppl. Like so bloody extra right. We two just sit in like that.
Thank God Fil came fast or I'll be like an idiot stuck with strangers and a gay.
HAHA.

AND.
He started telling everyone the whole exaggerated version of the story.
How I tortured him by making him to wait and then making him eat breakfast alone. HAHHAHA. Stupid gay.
And and. He said he'll never ever have breakfast with us again. LOLOL.
LET'S SEE. (:

Hahaha.
I wonder how I can even laugh at this.

But anw.
I wonder right.
Why some ppl just can say the right words to comfort one down, but yet another just isn't good at it and always give unhelpful replies.
But actually the 'another' does say helpful replies to others except you.
So does that mean that you're so insignificant.

I'm sleepy and sian-ed and tired and bored.
Oh wells oh wells.

Went school for pure fun today.
I think I need to get my brains checked.
Can stay at home don't want.
Go all the way to school and do what?
Laze around, play with MOMO, play The Sims 2, look at ppl present OP, go library and SLEEP.
Gahh. HAHAHAHAHA.

I think the school should give Fil, me and maybe Atiqah a "LOYAL MERIDIAN AWARD."
The reason simply.
We come school early in the morning and stay till like super late in the evening just for fun. lol!
Seriously it's just for fun.
Ppl are like all doing pw and we're sitting there and chatting and staring into space and watching our favourite TV programmes.

Op Op Op.
I hate you.
Oh wait.
No. I don't. Coz I don't love you in the first place.
You know, When there's hate, there's once love.
So no no. I dislike you to the core.
Thanks for torturing me arh.
But it's only 2 more frigging weeks.
And I'm rid of you.
BYEBYEBYEBYE. (In advance)
I'll not miss you don't worry.

I have a secret which I don't think anyone knows.
I just realised it today.
Became crystal clear to me when I just cleared my mind and seriously think.
Haha.
Fil and Atiqah, you both wouldn't want to know what issit if not you'll be scolding me again. lol.

Oh.
You know what I want to be in my next life.
A tree.
Then we'll never have to part from anybody (Other trees) once we're rooted there.
That is if you ignore all the "Oh one day maybe the place will be cleared for construction."

My brain's shutting down.
Today's a self declared off day from pw.
I don't care. I'm not touching it today.
HAHAHA. (:
I want to sleep.

HAHAHA.
YOU KNOW WHAT.

I realised that alot of unknown people are like reading my blog.
Unknown people = people I never talked to before or probably don't even know they exist.
Hahaha.
You know maybe they should set a rule like. All those coming in please state who the hell you are and what are your motives.
Lol. Okay no.
Coz it's meant to be a public thing as long as you don't lock it up.
Public goods are goods which exhibit characteristics of non-rivalry and non-excludability.
I dread dread dread next year can. And even the holidays.
Coz it means studying. ):

Ah wells.
The sudden downpour of rain.
I mean it's really raining now.

Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams-

Ohno.
And the long scratch mark on the underside of my right arm is still red and visible. ):
Coz I accidentally scratched myself with my long long long fingernails.
Ouch.

And.
I finally realised something.
I'm so damn pathetic.
Hahaha.
I knew why I'm feeling like this all along
yet I still refuse to accept it.
coz it means facing this whole crap again.
All I could do is to run and run and run,
and even finding something to replace this feeling.
HAHA.
Failed miserably coz I ended up getting something which still reminds me of this.
Or rather you.
Lol. Face it laa. Face it.
Stop being so pathetic.



Is there still hope.
Can I still pray for a miracle.
But I just don't dare to hope anymore.
Seriously.
Not a single tinge of it.

Oh.
I think I totally wasted my whole day today.
Haha. Since when am I not wasting my day.

Dry run with Ms Pang in the morning.
Blah blah blah.
After that...
Hanged ard in school and played with my DS.
LOL! Blowing game, rolling snowballs in the canteen when others are busy doing their pw. hahaha.

Yep.
And yay. I'm a happy happy girl now.
My darling white pretty DS has more games now. ((:
I love love love my MOMO you know.
My pretty labrador puppy. HAHA.
SO CUTE I TELL YOU.
Even Lee Jin, Pang they all were amazed by it. Lol!
Oh wait oh shoot. I just realied momo's a girl's name. Issit? HHAHAHA.

And Atiqah, Fil and I were in the hall playing the piano.
Was trying to teach them that shamrock song Eve and Stella wrote. [As in. They listened then write the notes out.] HAHA.
Fun fun fun. (:

Camwhoring after that but it turned out weird.
Hmmmm.
I'm tired.
No mood to work on OP slides.
Maybe I should go sleep.
SLEEP.

Well well.
Thanks a lot PW.
For deprieving me of my sleep.

It's like... 1.04am and I'm still infront of the com.
Even Cheng Yew pointed out that I've been online the whole day.
WA MADNESS.

DS DS DS.
My poor ds without games. HAHA!
Hmm. Or should I say only 2 pathetic games.
): ): ):

Alright.
I better go and sleep.
I don't want to dream of you again.
Or maybe I want to.
Hmmmm...
One day I'm gonna figure out what I'm thinking.
Do I even feel for you. I don't even know.
Maybe not maybe not.
Maybe my heart just mistook it to be so similar.
But actually it's not.
Maybe.

OKAY.
Enough blabberings.
SLEEP.

Zomgg.
I hate it when I start thinking.
Coz all the things will start rushing in.
Like information overloading in a bad way.

And and and.
I still haven't decide what I should do with this crap.
How I should handle it.
I thought of a few alternatives.
But I hope that one will never happen.
But but if one day I really decide on doing that,
then there's no turning back.
More time to think.
I need more time to think.
So you. Pray hard that that one day never comes.
Maybe you should do something to change my mind.

Eh.
You know.
I hate it when something happens and then someone just says a full load of crap which seems so sweet and nice and then they expect you to take it the way they see it and then pretend that nothing has happened.
I can't do that you know.
Maybe if you want to pretend I can keep up with this pretence for like a few times. But deep down, I seriously can't stand this.
It even digusts me to a certain extent.

I'm feeling all sorts of emotions now.
It's so amazing how can someone feel so many things at the same time.
Contradictory feelings somemore.
If I were to die now I wouldn't mind,
Coz I've felt all sorts of things already that would be enough to last me through.

You know I'm hoping against hope.
Hahaha.
I know that somethings won't happen
yet I'm still hoping that it'll happen.
See what YOU're doing to me.

I'm such a weird person. Coz I got all sorts of rubbish thoughts in my head
that even me myself can't decipher them.
I don't even know what I want.
I think it's like this. Yet I think it's the like that.
Someone should just pry open my brain and clear the things out one by one and maybe I'll see what I'm really thinking.
Who I'm really thinking and missing.

Oh wells oh wells.
I'm praying for a miracle.
PUSH - Pray Until Something Happens.
HAHA.
JM, sounds familar eh.

I don't know why
but I just feel like blogging.

Today I'll be stuck at home doing pw.
Oh goshhh.
I&R draft due today.
OP dry run tomorrow.
Crap crap crap. Argh.

Oh. And the first thing my brother did when he woke up today
was to on the ds and play. HAHA.
And he's still playing it now.
Super Mario. HAHA.
A game we love.

Mum: Huh. Playing that mashimaro game again arh.

LOL.
My mum loves using the word mashimaro wrongly.
Like that time we were on the topic on bbq.

Mum: Oh you all got buy that mashimaro not..
Me: Huh what mashimaro.
Mum: You know that mashimaro when you bbq to eat it's very nice.

Yes. Marshmellows are nice when you bbq it.
Not mashimaro.
Just coz it looks as white and fluffy and the pronounciation is well, similar. HAHAHA.

Such a boring day today.
I'm going to try to go out in the evening to buy micro SD card.
For ds.
Sighh.

So before that.
PW must be completed.

Oh.
I think I wasted my whole day today.

Went to the immigration crap whatever you call it place at lavendar with my mum and bro in the morning to collect my bro's new passport.
Coz I wanted to go shopping after that.
THEN.
We ended up waiting for 4 freaking hours just to get that stupid thing.
wth.
Thanks to my dad who told my mum to go on a saturday when they wrote there clearly:
"AVOID SATURDAYS"
Very very smart.

And I wasted the whole morning plus afternoon.
Went orchard after that.
This is like the first time I went there with my whole family.
Ate lunch plus dinner at 5plus.

AND AND AND.
I BOUGHT DS.
OMG.
DS!
Haha. It's like totally sudden.
This morning I told my mum I want to buy it and let's go Takashimaya later to see.
And she actually said okay.
And and. The next thing I knew I was like there deciding whether to buy DS or PSP.
Msged ppl like Wuss and CY to ask for their opinions and decided to buy DS! ahahah!

After that we went my mum's office's club house which was nearby to check out. And we ended up staying for 2hrs. Played pool and sang karaoke. lol.
And I reached home at like 9plus.
My day's gone like that.
Stupid I&R.
Stupid OP.
Stupid PW.

OHOH!
And I just realised I forgot to blog that
today's sight in school was damn hilarious.

At like 6pm, the library was crowded with more ppl than usual.
Then at 6.15pm if you're at the study benches, you can see ppl running here and there - to the photocopy shop or the library.
Like seriously running.
HAHAHA.
DAMN FUNNY LAA.

Coz the final final final submission for WR is at 6.30 I heard.
Point to take note: DO NOT do last minute work.
lol!

And right.
I just can't bring myself to do I&R.
Goshh. I'm so lazy. ):

EH.
Know what!

This is what they actually are doing if you take design stream course in UNSW. And it's only the foundation year.
JUST IMAGINE
what you'll be doing when you go up the level.
OMG OMG OMG.

And the above pictures show this lamp project Eve has to do for her course.
Prettyyyyy right. Gosh. So pretty.
I wonder how can anyone come up with sth like this. HAND MADE SOMEMORE.
SIAO.
I'd have died long long ago if you threw me in design course.
Ohmy ohmy.
You're so talented Eve.
I bet you can design your own furnitures next time.
Design some for my future house okay.
When you become famous the next time,
DO NOT FORGET ME.
HAHAHA. (:

Today was boring as usual.
BUT BUT.
At least we've handed up WR!!! WHEEEEE.

Got up late and poor gay was pangseh for breakfast at Macs.
Went school to bind WR first.
Then went breakfast with gay.
He eats slower than some girls I tell you.

Went back school find Fil and Jean.
Then we went to TAMPINES CLINIC AGAIN.
You know that one Fil went for her jab.
And that one we went ytd to collect her results.
YES YES YES.
MY THIRD TIME GOING THERE.
Coz that blur girl forgot to take receipt!!!

So our daily routine is like...
Long bus ride to Tamp, then eat then come back school
AND SLACK.
Went school library and we were so nice to let this group use the discussion room for pw when we could have watched DVDs.
So stayed outside and talked.
So nice to talk laa. lol.

And I tell you.
Fil has the weirdest tastes.
Keyi's pw group then came to join us.
Shoo-ed those ppl out of the discussion room and we watched Malcom in the middle. [issit?]
HAHA.
So funny laaa.

Small boy: I dreamt that the monster sucked my brain.
Mum: Arghh. I've had enough of this. If the monster comes again, let him take your brain and go back to sleep.

And watching DVDs together is so so so fun. Look at the pic above. This was the sight that time when we played SECRETS on the laptop in the canteen. LOL.

And.
Fil was saying.
Sth damn hilarious happened today during her group's OP dry run.

Hiangling: Good morning _______, I'm the first singer for today.

HAHAHAH!!!
Should be speaker laa. In case you didn't get it. LOL!

Yepyep.
AND AND.
It's just so sad to hear such news.
Ppl out there,
I may not understand what you all are really feeling.
BUT.
I do feel your pain and I pray that all of you will find a way to move on with life.
And you!
Don't be too sad alright.
We'll still come find you and hang out like before!!!
SO. DON'T CRY ANYMORE AND SMILE!!
You're a brave brave girl!

Zomgg.
This is so so so so so annoying.

I printed the whole WR already
AND
*POOF*
I realised a stupid mistake.
My first table heading starts with 2 instead of 1.
You know.
Table 2:________
when it should be
Table 1:________
BLAHHHHHHH.

And I can't believe we actually didn't realise it all along.
Zomg zomg zomg.
I should just go hit the wall and die.

SO IN THE END.
I had to reprint those parts.
Like wth.
Poor trees. I wasted like 19 pieces of paper. :/
My poor precious ink as well.
And my time and energy.
):

ALRIGHT.
I'M OFF TO SLEEP.
THANKS A LOT YOU PW
FOR SCREWING UP MY LIFE
AND DEPRIEVING ME OF MY LIFE.

Waa. I tell you. My life can't get any more pathetic than this.
Go school, PW, hang around in school with friends.
Go clinic with Fil and gay to collect Fil's blood group report.
Then go to White Sands.
Long bus rides.
Sat on 39 and gay acted as if it's his house.
Occupied 3 seats with his BIG BIG crumpler, wallet and hp, and himself.

Rained heavily.
Was stuck at the bus stop for a moment.
Then went library to find Keyi's PW group.
Camped at the kids corner which is so spacious and deserted. LOL.
Went down for Macs ice cream, then went up again.
And Fil, gay and I sprawled across the floor and SLEPT.
The laptop casing's my new pillow with this stupid plug inside which made it so hard.
UNGLAM laa we all. LOL.
Wearing skirts somemore. HAHA!

And the libarian finally came and said:
"EXCUSE ME."

See. How boring can our lives get.
And I seriously lost touch with the time.
As in.
I don't even know what day issit today or what time issit now.
Ohmy.

I'm falling asleep infront of the com very soon.
Stupid WR..

Anw.
Today was fun.
Met Filza at Tamp and we went to a nearby clinic and she took her vaccination jab which is required for SLC Chiangmai trip.
And it was so scary watching her taking the jab. LOL.

Doctor: Why you never go also.
Me: *Looking at the needle going in and said weakly* Huh....
Filza: HAHAHA.

And poor Filza now has like... 5 holes on her hands.
3 for the jabs, and 2 for blood test coz she doesn't know what's her blood type. HAHA. And the extra hole for blood test is coz the doctor poke wrongly. LOL.

After that we went Long John's.
Ate ate ate.
And Fil saw her TPJC friends whom are from TKGS too.
Like some tkgs reunion gathering. lol.
And and and.
We sat down and chat.
With ppl I never knew existed in TK. LOL.
But then it's so fun. (:

Went back to school.
And we were so worried over interview later on.
Hahaha. Felt so weak when I was walking through the gates.

Met up with my interview group ppl.
All girls.
3 of us were from tkg.
Wow. lol.
Nice nice ppl.
Quite hyped up when talking and everything and I kinda felt less nervous.

Situational room first.
Damn fun I tell you.
HAHA!
And Lizzy put me in weird places like... outside the classroom when it's so bloody dark. And facing this wall stuck with some guy. lol!
Fun fun fun.
And we started the trend by doing Atlas cheer and the other houses followed suit.

Interview was the scary part.
JinJian was there and Filza and I kept laughing.
Kena all the weird questions. One from Sherman and one from JJ.
Ahhh. I think I crapped my way through. LOL.
And poor Liting malu-ed herself. HAHA. Damn funny laa.

One item to describe Filza?

Filza: First-aid kit.

HAHAHA.

JinJian: Eh just now why you never say pau when asked about the item to describe yourself. If you said pau full marks liao lah.

Inside joke. lol.

Anw anw.
It's OVER.
Heck heck heck.
At least I had fun.
And knew more fun ppl.
Interview was so fun. (:

Today's a self declared holiday.
HAHAHA.

Or maybe not.
Had to work on WR.
Kept wanting to sleep in but ended up getting out of bed at 9.30.
After receiving a call from Yinqi.
I guess I'll never feel what's she's feeling now for I'm not in her shoes.
But I'm glad to know that I'm still remembered by friends from long ago. [Maybe not that long.]
And I suddenly miss my Secondary school life.

So girl, if you're reading this, cheer up okay.
It's not the end of the world. Really.
I'll be here whenever you need to talk alright.
And meet up soon after dreadful PW along with Fawn. (:
We shall SHOP SHOP SHOP all our worries away!
And whenever you're feeling really down, remember the song we used to [and still] love.


Okay. Leaving the house in 30mins time.
Shall blog more later when I get back.

Hahahaha.
I woke up late today.
Coz my dad thought today no school and didn't wake me up.
And my mum was like shouting it's 7am already and I totally jumped up from bed.
And zomgg. I can't rmb what I dreamt about last night.
Coz I jumped out of bed. LOL.

Anw anw.
Went school slack as usual.
Then lunching with council ppl plus Fil, Keyi and gay.
Yep.
OH.
AND BLUR FILZA LEFT HER WALLET [not really. This plastic holder thingy] ON MACS TRAY.
And realised it only when we reached the bus stop.
LOLOL.
We walked all the way back and made the poor auntie dig through the pile of rubbish coz the tray was emptied. LOL.
And before that JinJian kept hugging to the laptop tight so that he can find an excuse not to dig through the rubbish if there is a need to. hahaha!

Me: EH! JINJIAN. GO DIG FOR HER WALLET. VS guys v. gentlemen de right.
JinJian: Huh nooo. I no hands to dig. *Holds on tight to laptop* Dung your hands v. free go dig.

And he claims that he saw the thing first.

JinJian: I see it I see it!

HAHAHA
Damn funny lah him.

Hmmm..
In short. I didn't go for ogl interview.
Hahahah!
Not gonna elaborate. (:

YOU know.
Maybe maybe maybe
JUST MAYBE.
Our hearts have the same favourite colour.

BUT.
What IF
my heart has like...
2 favourite colours?
Yet maybe maybe maybe.
The two colours may be so similar that it mistook one to be the other.
SO.
JUST WHAT IS MY HEART'S FAVOURITE COLOUR.

Okay. Make sense?
No? HAHA!
I myself get confused sometimes too.
YOU YOU YOU.
Tell me what to do will you.

You know what.
I think we've talked so much before that it's enough to last us through even if we don't ever ever ever talk again.

You know what.
I think you've said enough 'I love you's to last me for a lifetime.

Know what?
I think I've so many memories that I almost do not need anything else.

Random blabberings.

You know. Love is like a butterfly. The more you try to catch it, the further it flies away.
Let's see how far it flies.
Let's see how much it's lost.

I swear my com's going to burst soon.
Like go ka-boom.
Okay not funny.

I've been infront of the com since.... 1pm?
OMG.
Stupid WR. I swear I'll slap it if it had a face.
Maybe even kill it.

And OGL interview tmr?
Why am I so suay.
First day kena.
Plus Louis Chua's interviewing.
Goshhh.
Why is my life so...
SAD.
):

About half the class's online.
Doing what?
Dreadful PW maybe.
But knowing my class.. they're probably slacking away.
Or maybe not.
HAHA.

Okay. My eyes need a rest.
11.11pm now.
Which means 10hrs online.
I can't believe this.
If my parents know the com has been on for like 10hrs,
they're going to chase me around the house with a hammer.




And Keyi's so cute I tell you.
She said she thinks there's sth wrong with her
and I told her to stop being mad.
And she says I'm totally sweet. LOL.

So for that, I shall post a photo of you here.
Actually I just uploaded it into my com after Fil demanded her photos of someone.
HAHAHA!

There. Doesn't she looks pretty. (:
And I mean her. Not me.

Time to sleep.
Dreadful day tmr. ):

I can't believe I'm stuck at home during a holiday rotting away infront of the com and DOING PW.

Went school in the morning to look for Mr Tan with gay.
Finally met up with him and he gave us quite some load of useful advices.
HAHA.
So helpful right. Omg.

Hmmm.
And OMG. Know what. Gay's house back in Vietnam is 5 STOREYS HIGH. OMGGG.
HAHAHA. Was damn shocked when he said that.
AND AND. I realised how flithy rich his parents are can. ZOMGG.

Saw Mr Neo around in school and he claimed that gay is my bf. Like wth.

Anw anw.
I predict I'll be sitting infront of the com for the next.. 4hours maybe.
Why is my life so pathetic. :/
And there's like no one online to talk to me. Gahh. Boring boring boring.
Oh wait.
Here comes Keyi. HAHAHA.

AND I TELL YOU MY BROTHER'S FRIENDS ARE SO DAMN IRRITATING.

Friend #1: Hello, is Wei Hang in?
Me: No he's not in.
Friend #1: Okay byebye.

15mins later.

Friend #1: "Hello, is Wei Hang in?"
Me: No he's not in.
Friend #1: Okay byebye.

25mins later.

Friend #1: Hello, is Wei Hang in?
Me: Argh. NO HE'S NOT IN.
Friend #1: Okay byebye.

12mins later.

Friend #2: Hello, is Wei Hang in?
Me: No he's not in.
Friend #2: Okay byebye.

Just what's wrong with them.
One more time and I'm going to throw that damn phone against the wall.
I'm trying to do my WR here and the stupid phone keeps ringing.
Goshhh.

Just got off the phone.
Talked for like 30+ mins.
Had fun bitching with my long lost bitching partner.
HAHAHA.

I tell you.
Whenever I talk to her all the stuffs will come out in a language I never knew would come out from me.
But of course we only talk about ppl whom are the worst out of the worst.
Eww.

Fun fun fun.
I miss my bitching partner.
Remember the Secondary days when we met after school to bitch.
Omg. So fun.
You rock girl. (:

Personality tests. HAHA

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test48.aspx

Here is the analysis:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person.

You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.
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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test45.aspx

Do you have a chance with the one you love?

You wait until the other party initiates a conversation.

In any case, if you don't make any efforts to meet people, no relationship is going to get started.
------------------------

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test42.aspx

Here is the analysis:

The most important thing in your life is a person you like.
The type of friends that you want is talkative.
-------------------------

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test39.aspx

The drawing of water springing out of the fountain tells something about emotions.

You are very feminine. Although you are very shy at times, you are strong and sometimes stubborn. It is always nice to hug you. You are rarely away from your sweetheart.
------------------------

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test30.aspx

Here is the analysis:

A man with a sense of humor who often behaves unexpectedly will find you very interesting.
--------------------------
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test28.aspx

The first qualification that you want from your partner is:

Personality: a person with a kind and good character will always attract you.
---------------------------

See. I keep going on and on and on when I start doing personality tests.
Long post today. Zomg.

I just found these quotes on imeem.
HAHA!

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.

True love never dies as we see in our eyes, only when we let go that we can truly say goodbye.

Don't ever give up if you still want to try, don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Don't ever say you don't love her if you can't let her go.

I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that I hated you. That sooner or later I would come to believe it.
But I now realize that by lying, it makes me want you even more.

Part of loving someone is learning to let go.

No matter how much it'll hurt me to see you, my most loved lost one, all that I wish is look into your eyes once again.

I'm not saying there wasn't anything wrong, I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me. I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on, I just didn't wanna let it get away from me.

Take a look at what you have. Think of all you did to get it. Remember it only takes one second to lose.

Loving you was easy, losing you was hard. Loving you is still easy, but knowing you are no longer mine, is the hardest of it all.

A lost love is never lost unless what's lost is the love for your lover.

You said you didn't want to see me get hurt, so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

I thought I'd forget you, but I guess I forgot to.

Don't say we're not right for each other, the way I see it, we're not meant for anyone else.

Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know you can't have them, but it's worse when you thought you didn't want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you can't live without them.

The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to.

Love is letting go of the one you love, hoping that they will come back to you when they realize what they have lost.

I wish I was a kid again, because skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.

Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

My family and I went out since afternoon after I kept complaining that I was bored.
Ate lunch then went Tamp Safra coz I wanted to pool. HAHA. And since my brother is underage, so only can go there to play.

But in the end, I ended up pooling with this 6 years old kid who hold the cue with 2 hands to hit the thingy but still played pretty well. Coz he was looking at us play and my brother was damn lousy at pool. So I asked if he wants to play with me. LOL.

And I beat him twice plus another round with my dad!! HAHAHA.

Yepyep.
Pooling is so fun I tell you. (:

OH.
And my long lost BESTFRIEND a.k.a Fawn came to talk to me on msn just now!
We seriously need to meet up soon and CATCH UP.
OHHH. I miss them! I mean. Fawn and YQ.
After the dreadful PW we MUST MUST MUST MEET UP! (:

So in the end I took a 45mins bus ride to the airport, did pw for like only an hr then gay made me go parkway with him.

Talked on the bus and he was telling me something.
That was the first time I saw this other side of him.
lol.

And oh. Do you know he actually took out 10bucks from his wallet and gave it to this old man who approached us and claimed that he has no money to eat and that he's starving.
So nice right.

And gay spent like.. 70+ bucks on clothes. Poor me had to stand in the shop like an idiot playing with his O2 phone. Blahh.

And I came home and saw my house packing with my relatives.
Yes they're still here.
So noisy. Doesn't feel like I'm at home at all. lol.
And I just realised I can't stand loud noises.
It puts me to sleep. Seriously.
Stupid WR. It's finally done. I mean. Finally put everything together and made it flow. And I tell you my photoshop skills are like so damn lousy now.

Been blog hopping just now and it seems like friendship issues have been surfacing in almost every blog I went. Actually I only went to 3. HAHA.
And it made me really wonder about this issue.

Friends..
They didn't seem very important in primary school. In fact I think I just breezed through life like that and not rememebering whatever that's happened.
And there came a time when they are very very important to me. Especially during lower sec times. Everyday we'll just play and joke and everything and well, they form majority of my life. Come to Secondary 3 then I realised how different things were. Coz all my friends were like in different classes. And it really made me real moody and everything. Coz things were not the same. I think I sunk into depression that time. Lol. Sounds stupid, but it really affected me quite badly.
Then I learnt how to not care. And slowly you turn into a feelingless person. Not excatly uncaring, but just not as caring as the past.
But then Secondary 4 was quite a nice year. Learnt how to get along well with new friends, and slowly things became good again.
Then again, I just know that I'm not the same person as before.
Like.. something has changed. Maybe it's because of the experiences that make one colder. I don't know.

Come to J1, my first 3 mths is a very very fun one.
Everyday come school slack, crap. Maybe it's like a brand new beginning, and I really don't mind my pae class although we're not VERY bonded. But still, I was happy.
Then come jae.
Beginning was fine.
The middle was a little messy.
And now I don't know what's going on.
I don't mean the class.
I'm okay with the class now. ERM. Trying to be okay with it.
But it's more of the immediate friends.

You know. I realised that if I can choose, I'll choose friends over love.
That is if I can only choose one.
Because after all these, I realised that friends are the ones who will be there at the very end.
When people who promised they'll be there are not there.

Eh wait.
You know what.
I don't know what the hell I'm trying to say.
I'm like damn tired now and I can't think properly.
So please pardon me I don't make sense and I seem to go on and on about nothing.

AND SERIOUSLY.
I THINK MY WRITING SKILLS SUX.
OMG.
Whoever who marked my compo during exams must be wrong in the mind to give me that kind of marks.

Back to the point.
I think the key thing to friendship is.. understanding and accepting.
I don't know why you're thinking that way lah.
But hmm. If you want my view, I think it's redundant to even think that way.
Maybe I don't understand how you feel, maybe I don't see why you're doing that, maybe you think it's the best way out.
SO, if you think that you're happier that way, so be it.
I mean. What can we do right.
But well. If only we can get along like how we used to. Issit that difficult.
Oh wells.
I really don't know what I'm talking.
IN SHORT.
Friends are very very very important to me now.
You know. They brighten up the day and bring joy and laughter to you.
ERM. Depending on who actually. LOL.
So gang, THANKS ALL FOR BEING YOURSELF. (:

Long meaningless post.
Ohman.
Sleep.
I need to sleep.
And well.
I don't know if I wanna dream of YOU or not.
Maybe I will again.
Where are YOU where are you where are you.
I think I'm missing YOU.
Do I?

It's early in the morning and I'm about to go out in about 20mins time.
My gay brother just screamed and claimed that there is a dragonfly flying in the house. LOL.

I want DS I want DS I want DS.
Ahhh.
Can some kind auntie/uncle of mine buy me one.
Pretty please.

You know I woke up today
and I realised that I had a wonderful wonderful dream about YOU.
Like omggg.
It was so pretty I tell you.
Made me grin like an idiot when I thought about it.

Please come now
for I don't know if I can take this anymore.
Anyone anyone. YOU or you.
Just anyone who can keep me safe.

Oh shit. And I realised I'm late already.
HAHAHA.
That gay's going to kill me I tell you.
Dung = gay

Ohya. Let me say how he got this nickname.
We were shopping for somebody's bday present one day at White Sands.

Me: Huh. Ehh. Are you really sure he likes soft toys?
Keyi: Yea. According to LJ.
Dung: Soft toys are cute what.
Keyi: Hahaha. Another gay.

LOL.
The way she said it was so funny.

Today felt utterly looonnnggg.
As in the day.

Went to school and ended up playing ass-hole Big 2 infront of Ms Pang. [Awhile only lahh.] HAHA! From loser to queen, then drop to the last, and climbed up to King, and blah blah blah. So funny lahh.
And Jean's last card was 3 of hearts, and Kewei was beside her and he was saying "Even if I put my smallest card [3 of spade] you also cannot win." LOL.

Hmm. After that went Macs to have brunch with Keyi, LJ, Dung, JinJian, Pang and Chee Xuan. And actually Keyi and I planned to go to the hotel LJ's mum booked at Swisshotel [I think] for his bday. Umm. We planned to go there and look around and maybe camwhore. HAHA!
But in the end... Stupid JinJian wanted to go home and SLEEP. So we ended up stoning at White Sands and walking ard that boring place.

Met up with Filza after that. She going Red Cross HQ and I tagged along. Fahan was going to HQ as well.
Lolol.
Hmmm. Was so tired that I dozed off standing. Finally made our way back to TM to meet Fil's sister for shopping. Fahan is one funny guy. Kept picking on us on the mrt. Bleah. VS ppl. Tsk tsk tsk.

Then it was shopping at TM with Fil and her sister.
Walked walked walked. HAHA.
Shoes. Rubberbands. Earrings spree. (:

And we were looking for water babies. As in the seeds to grow it. We ended up going all the way to Pasir Ris to find it. But in the end? We realised sth and felt so cheated. HAHA.

I seriously think I have nothing to do than to go from Pasir Ris all the way to Douby Ghaut then come back to where I started.
Like touring ard Singapore can. LOL.

Alright alright alright.
Dreadful weekends is coming and it's PW time. Goshhh.
):

I tell you.
I hope PW will continue for MANY MANY MANY more years!
They can't get away with making us suffer this shit and then abolish it after we've survived through it.
Surely our JUNIORS must have a taste of how WONDERFUL PW is righttt.

And Mr PW Tan. Thanks for making us run around the whole school looking for you BUT to no avail. HAHA!
Oh wells. I better tidy up WR now. No more slacking!

I don't know what you're thinking and I don't know what's happening.
I want you to feel what I want you to feel but I know what you're feeling isn't what I want you to feel.
Or maybe I'm wrong?
Ya right. RIGHT.

OP the whole day today.
How boring can school get.

After doing WR for awhile, went to find the rest and they played soccer.
They = Jean, Keyi, Dung, Lee Jin, Yong Zhi, Louis and... anyone else? Not really sure.
And then watched Jean, Keyi, Louis and Yong Zhi playing squash. Tried hitting the ball a few times in school U. HAHA. Quite fun actually. Easier than tennis. As in the hitting. Nice sport. (:

And Keyi, Dung, Lee Jin and I decided to go play pool.
Stoned in canteen for ages. LJ finally went home to change while we went to change out of school uni as well. Then erm... Oh. Then I was like so sleepy that I decided I was too sian to play pool and I changed back to school uni. LOL.
In the end ended up going to Dung's hostel so that he can get his travel declaration form. Poor Keyi and I walked there with him climbing up that stupid hill and sweating like hell and he made us stay downstairs to wait for him. Coz not allowed to go into the room. HAHA!
Keyi and I were so pissed that we kept cursing him. hahaha. Actually only Keyi. Seriously, I can't imaging life in hostel. Seems boring. Ohmy.

Then we finally headed to parkway for pool.
2hrs. (:
Paired randomly with Dung, LJ or Keyi for different games.
And believe it or not. Keyi and I actually thrased them in a game! Omg. HAHA. TKGS vs. VS. HAHAH!
And LJ says that my pooling skills have improved a lot. LOL.
Felt quite the same though. But it's still fun fun fun. (:

Cabbed plus bus-ed home with LJ.
You know we took a cab, and then we decided to get off coz there was like traffic jam then we took bus. HAHAHA! So lame of us laa.

I'm loving all my outing days.
If only PW never exists.
Stupid WR is driving me nuts. NUTS NUTS NUTS.
Oh gosh.

And didn't I told you to stop running
around in my mind.

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen Peacemaker, first to end a fight Good at thinking up creative dates Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily Going with your gut instead of your head Empathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault Good at recognizing patterns in relationships Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

So today sums up everything.
Oh wells.
Let's see.
S E C C B
Can't form a word with it. Not nice de.
Chem, Physics, Maths, Econs, GP in order.
Econs and GP was rather unexpected.

Today was such a boring day.
After school we went KFC and Dung was so nice that he initiated to treat me. Hmm. Or maybe after I was just jokingly saying he should treat me.
Then Fil and Atiqah came to join us and we walked ard and then found that White Sands was so frigging boring.
So Fil and Keyi wanted to go back to school. But Dung, Atiqah and I didn't want to go. EH SCHOOL LEH. Like omg. That's the last place I wanted to go.
And we spent like what seemed a million years at the traffic light junction deciding where to go. After missing like 3 traffic lights, Keyi and Fil just dumped us there and went back themselves. And poor Atiqah and I were stuck with Dung who was sitting unglamly at the pavement there deciding where to go and shouting "I'm so damn bored."
Finally after missing like 16 or more traffic lights, we finally decided to go...
BACK TO SCHOOL.
HAHAHA.
Fil called twice and that twice we were like still stuck at the same spot. Ppl must think we're mad.
Planned to borrow laptop to watch dvd, then we realised that stupid laptop can't read dvds.
So we went to walk ard and ended up sitting at gallery and talking.
And it was so fun that I ended up not wanting to go home. HAHA!
Stayed in school till 7pm talking and playing around with councillors.
Fun fun fun. (:

Oh. During recess we watched SECRETS on laptop in the canteen. A huge crowd of us were like crowding ard that stupid laptop. LOL.
AND I tell you it's my FIFTH time watching it.
Ytd we were at the library and this group of ppl were watching it in the discussion room and we just randomly went in and joined them.
And today I watched it again. Gosh. I'm getting so bored of that show. Lol!
But it's nice right you must admit.

And please I pray that everyone in 07S202 will get promoted!!
We'll have a wonderful JC2 life together crapping laughing and MUGGING TOGETHER. Omg so fun! :D


I BET YOU ARE.
So please stop running!
Have a break have a break.
AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE PLEASE STOP RUNNING AT NIGHT WHEN I'M SLEEPING AS WELL.
Aren't you tired.
If you're not, I seriously am.
My mind needs a rest you know.
SO STOP RUNNING.

Just when I thought you were different,
you turned out to be excatly like someone of the past.
(Or maybe worse)
And just when I thought you'll never hurt me,
you proved me wrong again and again.

Promises are like butterflies. They flutter around beautifully,
then disappear.

I'm feeling so dead now.
As in. Emotionally dead.

Not coz of promos results. Nothing to do with it.

but
I'm
just
feeling
damn
damn
damn
dead.

Argh. What's wrong with me.
I really think I'm going crazy. One moment the mind is not thinking anything, and the next moment a whole whirlpool of thoughts settle in. To the point that it hurts so much that the brain subconsiously filters out everything and suddenly you can't remember what you were thinking before that. I'm serious. Like sudden memory loss.

And I don't know why I'm crying infront of the com now.
I seriously don't know why.
I feel like such an idiot.
Guess today is just a lousy mood day.

If my mum were to buy me a DS I think I'll be happier. Hahaha.
I shall demand for one. Ummm. Hopefully she'll agree.

And I just realised that
whenever I'm feeling real down,
you just seem to appear.
I MEAN. Seriously. Like poof. There you are.
Like God sent someone to be there for me when I'm feeling horrible.
But well. Can't possibly rely on others so much all the time.
Anyway, thank you thank you thank you.

Oh wells.
One more paper.
I'm going to get promoted.
(hopefully)
All of us must and will.

And Atiqah pointed out sth.
It's so fun liking someone secretly.
HAHAHA.
So maybe maybe maybe I'll let my feelings for YOU grow!
But in the first place I'm not even sure if I really do like you or not.
Maybe it's just a stupid crush.
Arghhh.
Annoying annoying.




I was praying to God that I'll find something useful in the bible and poof this came out. I think I understand what He's trying to tell me.
Everything will turn out fine. (:

And now I'm feeling so sleepy...
Think I'm falling sick. :/

Arghhh.
I tell you.
I hate this feeling.

School today was damn damn damn damn DAMN boring. OMG.
Went school... then slack in the classroom for pw. AND THEN WE WERE TOLD WE CAN GO HOME WHEN IT'S LIKE... 9AM? LOL!!
Coz OP the whole day. Goshhh.

And I can't rmb how I survived the time in school.
Walking all around the school, going library, and I think more than half the time I was complaining "I'm damn bored."
Goshhhh.

Went Pastamania for lunch with Keyi and Dung, then went to watch movie. Balls of Fury. Damn funny lahh. haha.
And now I'm broke. Ohno. ):

Blah blah blah.
Pw's driving me crazy.
Stupid WR.
Argh.

And now I'm feeling damn lousy.
Argh.
So tired physically and EMOTIONALLY.
Oh YOU.
I hope YOU're just a passing thing and I'll probably get bored of YOU soon.
But then again if I get bored of YOU, then I'll be like seriously so bored.
See what YOU're doing to me. YOU're driving me nuts that I don't even know what I'm talking about.
If nothing's going to happen, then please please please I don't want to fall into this any further.
(Or maybe I do want to)

IF I'M GOING TO LET MYSELF FALL INTO THIS MORE THEN MAYBE I SHOULD PRAY HARD THAT A MIRACLE'S GOING TO HAPPEN.
(Because I highly doubt that it's going to happen.)

All I want is YOUR love love love love
Can I have it?

I'm going crazy I tell you.

Wasted the whole day again.
Gahh.

Went to meet SJ and Sab for Ratatouille movie at TM.
Always wanted to catch that movie. hahaha. I know it's like released so long ago but no time laa. lol.

Me, Sab, SJ. In the toliet after the movie.

Talked and caught up.
Banana (:, pho^2, Donut guy, Disgusting idiots.
HAHA.

Macs fries was so salty that we kept beating the fries on the tray before eating. SJ was saying the counter person must be thinking we're three weirdos beating fries. LOL.

After that SJ and I went to the library. Went to borrow books. Have to find back my long lost passion of READING. And SJ says the books that I borrow all look the same. As in the covers. The same kind de. Those look very pretty and hard covered ones. lol.

And I realised I smile the same way in all the 5 photos we took. HAHAHAH.

So now is time to focus on PW PW PW.
Irritating crap.
Probably start on I & R later. Please hope that I'll start on it soon.

Random photos I uploaded from my phone.

So cute right. LOL.

This is how it hurts playing heart attack with guys. And I tell you my hand's at the bottom. Imagine how pain it is.

Me with the paper flowers made by SLC for charity. Nice right.

Fil said Jerome said sth like can give it to your gf and say "My love for you is undying like these fake flowers."
Aww so sweet.
And I said, you can twist it and say "My love for you is FAKE like the fake flowers."

Today was amazingly fun.
HAHA.
Tended the CG booth as well as SLC booth. And walked ard to look at the performances and eating and everything.
I tell you I watched the interhouse dances and dance club dance for like 4 times already can. Including dry run and the actual performances. HAHA.

Watched choir performance in the library.
It feels weird to be part of the audience instead of performing.
And I must say I miss being in choir.
All the songs which makes no sense coz they're in a different language
and all the stupid warm-ups which I don't think I'm using my support properly still.
If Kd was still staying in MJ, I would have continued with choir.
Ah wells.

And so interhouse mass dance competition was fun. At the 2nd try Atlas finally hyped up and I must say I really enjoyed myself cheering and dancing even though I probably look like an idiot coz I can't dance. And this was the first time I cheered so loudly. So proud of myself.
And mass dance with the school was fun. Haha.
At the end of it, Kevan was like calling callisto ppl to gather together and some of us Atlas ppl from our class ran along to the front. And we acted like we were in callisto and joined in their cheer. Though Cheng Yew shouted "Atlas!" instead of "Callisto" at the end. HAHA. So funny.

Went for dinner with the girls at Macs and everone were like so tired.
I drank tons of water today and I didn't go to the toliet once. Amusing right.
And Filza was drinking bubble tea and she said she wanted another cup. And I told her it's not healthy coz it's artificial flavouring they're using. [Or so I assume] And somehow we were talking about getting rid of the flavouring yet still drinking ice blended bubble tea. Jean came up with the idea of..

Jean: Oh. You can go tell the auntie. I want ice blended.
Auntie: [Jean pretended to talk as the auntie] Huh what ice blended.
Jean: Ice blended.
Auntie: HUH.
Jean: I said I just want ice blended!

Get it?
Ice blended with just the ice. So it'll be healthy. HAHA. How lame can we get.
And Fil dared Jean to really say that and she offered to pay her $1.50. Malu yourself just for $1.50. HAHA!

Enjoyed myself today.
And to think I even wanted to pon it coz I wasn't feeling well.
Waterworks ytd. Like some loose pipe. Stupid tears kept coming. So irritated with myself coz that's the only thing I can do.
How pathetic can I get.

I haven't figured out how I should deal with this whole shit.
I just know that it's super irresponsible of you.
And you're being so so so so self-centred.
Now I realise that whatever you do is just thinking about yourself.

Liars.
Betrayed trust.
Shouldn't have trusted you again and again and again.
Why am I so dumb.

So I haven't been blogging.
Can't rmb what I did actually.

Monday..
Class chalet.

Quite fun actually. Met up with the gang and went downtown together.
We went pooling instead of going straight to the chalet.
My first time trying to pool actually. Nice Lee Jin was trying his best to teach me though I still turn out to be such a failure at it. Gave up on it after some time.
And a few of us like JinJian and Jean ended up playing the table soccer game.
The place was like infested with MJ ppl where I saw Daniel as well and he tried to poke me in the face but of course the smart me didn't kena. Thought it was Le Dung actually coz didn't expect him to be there. Such coincidence. lol.
Fun fun fun.

Finally went to the chalet and the rest were watching this gross violent movie which Hiangling loves. Omggg. Damn scary.
And then there were bridging sessions
as well as played heart attack with the girls. Damn fun. We always go "AHHH" at the same juncture every rounds. So amusing.

And as usual there were bbq. And blah blah blah.
Camwhored with Keyi and Fil in the room when the others were out eating. Damn funny. Coz ppl kept coming in and see us looking like idiots.

Pictures. (:











The day ended with more pooling [I watched only] and nice Le Dung sent me to the bus stop to wait for my dad to fetch coz Fil and Keyi went the other way.

*Keyi and Fil says bye and walks away*
Me: Ehh. Can you...
Dung: Walk you to the bus stop? Can.

Aww. So sweet. Guess some of my class guys are quite gentlemen after all. (:

Hmm. Think on tuesday I was damn damn damn bored at home coz I planned to meet Fil, Fad and Sengyong for dinner during the evenings. Yes. Fil and I were super random during chalet that we just called Sengyong up to ask him out for dinner. and told him I was super bored. Then I was talking to Lee Jin online and he's bored as well. So in the end we did some last minute planning and called ppl up to go catch a movie. Only Keyi can make it. LOL. So we just went ahead with it but instead went pooling.

The pool place at bugis is damn nice I tell you. Waa damn classy. Got nice nice sofa some more and Lee Jin says the balls are super shiny. HAHA!

And so that was the 2nd time I played pool and I'm proud to say I'm improving and I survived through the whole 2hrs. Keyi and I even thrashed LJ in a game. LOL. And stupid LJ kept setting traps for us and Keyi kept saying "Eh you die. Tmr pw I make sure you do all of the work."
HAHAHA.
But of course he was super patient with me and guiding me the way to shoot the thing.

And LJ's so nice. He didn't mind treating us to it even when it was like $20+. Another gentlemen. Why can't all guys be so nice.

And then it was shopping at bugis. Poor LJ.. Keyi and I kept walking into clothes store and trying clothes then he had to tag along. He was saying he can't stay in the store for more than 3mins. HAHA. So in the end he went somewhere else while Keyi and I window shopped. (:

After that went Parkway to meet up with Sengyong, Fil and Fad, coz sy's working at pp. I miss that place. Used to frequent there at least once a week back in tkg days. Actually sy didn't mind treating us to Swensens [half price though] but we felt bad about it lah. So just went kfc and ate and caught up.
Told lame jokes, Fad's funny class outing experience at Vivo, first 3 months stuffs, Fil's eye candies.. LOL.

I rmb there was this thing about Fil's eye candy has no ears. Think it went sth like this:

SY: How does your eye candy looks like.
Me: Got 2 eyes, 1 nose and a mouth.
Fil: Yar yar. And no ears.
SY: Huh no ears.
Fad: Coz when they hear Filza eye candy them their ears just dropped off.

HAHAHA.
And there was this funny thingy about the bridge which is under construction at school.

Somehow we were talking about shelters leading from bus stop to school, and...

Me: Oh. Now the route from the opposite bus stop is going to be sheltered too. Coz got bridge.
Fil: Ohya.
Fad: OHHH. THAT ONE! Very nice.
Fil and me: HAHAHAHAA. IT'S NOT EVEN BUILT YET.

Omg. Fad never fails to make my day. lol!

And so school reopened and then there were like boring cg preparations for open house. Omg it was so so boring.
Ytd we spent our free time playing cards in the class.
All sorts of game. Big 2, heart attack, bridge and MURDERER [The squeeze hand one].
Heart attack with the guys is horrendous. My hand almost broke under their weight can.
And bridge was damn funny.
Coz Danial just knew how to play and when it was his turn to do the bidding, he said..




HAHAHA. No need to play liao lah! 7! haahaha.
Reminded me of the tk times when we used to love bridging and got addicted at the wrong time during Olevels. And we were like playing during lessons in block periods after prelims, and some of them even played a few minutes before taking the Olevels paper. [According to Jean] lol.

And today was boring as well.
Played murderer in class as well as cheat.
I must say that Louis Chua is a bad nurse. [We played murderer with nurse inside. lol!] Sat beside me and kept healing and healing and healing when there isn't anyone dying. You know he even tried to take safety procedures and pass enough rubs to save himself in case he dies.
And cheat was fun. Played with 2 decks. And I was like... the 4th [issit] to win. After Louis. Hmm. Ohyes. Speaking of him, stupid person kept lying and kena take back his cards coz I kept opening the deck. LOL.

"7 SEVENS"
And turned out to be like what.. a mixture of other numbers. lol!

And poor Jean, Chee Xuan and Ke Wei had to continue playing. Imagine the amount of cards they have.
Someone was saying: "Huh. You have the whole suit arh."
And Daniel said:"Of course lah. Look at the amount of cards they have."
Lol! The way he said it was so funny.

And tmr will be the ultimate boring day.
Sheesh.
Stupid open house.

Heard the same things from everyone.
Telling me this and this and this.
I really don't know what to believe in anymore.




Maybe people do tend to leave old things behind when they find new ones.
Maybe I'm just someone left behind.
We'll see. We'll see.

Why am I remembering things which are said by some ppl that even he/she himself/herself doesn't remembers it.
Which means.
Why am I remembering what may be lies now.
Amusing isn't it.


Sounds familiar?
If I were to stop walking,
let's see if you'll realise it in time and stop with me.
Or just continue moving forward away from me.

Mahh. 3rd post this morning.
I'm still online and gotta get going in 15mins time.

For the past few days I don't dare to look into my heart to decipher what I'm feeling.
Coz I don't want to know how much hurt there is.
If I can continue running away, I probably might.
But I know sooner or later I have to face up to all these emotions.

All I know is everything I've said before is not a lie.
For I really love you and I'm bearly living without you.

Gosh. I don't even know how to type all I'm feeling out.
Coz I don't know excatly what I'm feeling.

All I know is I want us to talk like how we used to. For you to msg me random things like you used to. For us to behave like how we used to.
Issit that hard.

Maybe it's my fault that we became like this.
But why can't we just sit down and talk about it.
Don't you know that this is hurting me even more.
To not know why things are like this.

Maybe you don't wish to talk to me.
Maybe you enjoy talking to others more.

People always wait till they lose something then they learn how to cherish it.
But often, it'll be too late to do anything about it.

Please tell me that it's not too late.

This is so funny.
My brother's creating a havoc in the kitchen
and eating everything he can find.

Let's see...
First he ate CHEESE.
Then leftover hershey kisses which I left it there since... 2mths ago?
And now cuttle fish snack.
And he's still hungry.

Hmm.
Weird.
LOL.

And Louis Chua just said sth damn funny over msn.

Him: I suddenly realise i very long never hug my ah mah
Me: Huh you hug your ah ma one arh.
.
.
Me: Do you show your love to your parents. Like tell them I love you.
Him: No.
Him: Actually all very long no hug liao. Maybe one day everybody sit down hug hug.
Him: LOL. siao.

That's the funniest thing I've ever heard in a long time.
Gosh Louis Chua you're so hilarious.
Okay. But apparently he doesn't think it's funny.
So maybe there's sth wrong with me.