Waa.
I'm so pissed with my mum.

Yeah.
Bleahh.
I think she expects me to get A for everything or something.
Maybe she should try going through this whole crap and see for herself how difficult it is.

I'm so pissed.
Arghhhh.

Argh.
One after another.

Good things doesn't last all the way right.

Focus. Priorities.
It's 80+ more days to Midyears.
HAHAHA.

I forsee a rough few weeks coming up. :/

Block test results are bad bad bad.

Haven't gotten back all the papers yet BUT yeahhhhh.
Haha. This is the best you can get when you didn't put in much effort yeah.
The Lord has shown much grace already.

Has been a tiring 4 days.
Mainly because I've been very used to waking up late.
I have no idea what to blog about these days.
This is getting so boring.
Blahh.

School is seriously so boring.
Gahh.
And today's compass on career options really set me thinking.
Excatly one more year and university courses have to be made. [That is IF I can get into one. -prays hard-]
I used to want to be a vet. Coz you can deal with cute animals. And somehow animals are more appealing than humans Then I wanted to be a graphic designer. But I realised I've no talent in that. And it was down to psychologist coz I like talking to people about their problems and don't you think it's so fun understanding why they think a certain way they do. Heard that Singapore now offers up till Masters degree which means don't have to go overseas to study. An option to consider. But I know it'll be damn tough. Coz it involves researching AND I hate that. Plus the career prospects aren't that good either. Coz people will rarely approach a psychologist in a place like Singapore.

Oh yeah.
That reminds me.
A few days ago,
I was saying school is so stressful. The society is getting more and more fast paced. Life is hectic and STRESSFUL.
I should just go and be a farmer and live a peaceful life.

"Don't like Amaths? Then you should row a boat, find an island, build your own house and toliet, plant your own vegetable and you don't have to learn Amaths."

LOL. That was said to some other class. No us. I miss Ms Lee and her motherly face and her "Ok? Alright Ok?"

Ms Lee: Girls. Have you done your homework?
Class: -silence-
Ms Lee: Okay very good.

I miss tkgs for some reason.

OH WELL.
Put that aside and see how it goes.
And Stella was saying that day that we [Our OG] should all go to the same university together and live in the hostel. So fun! HAHA. Then we'll be our senior's seniors once they get out of NS. HAHAHA.



Not emo-ing. I've always like the tune of the chorus.

Oooh.
I feel so accomplished today. Haha.

Today my brother and I had to pack dinner back for our parents from my grandma's place due to some reasons.
And I helped to wash my brother and my own plates AND my brother offered to cut pear for me and our parents. HAHA.

And we braved the heavy downpour slight drizzle and even RAN after the stupid bus with hands full of things looking like an idiot. -claps-

Ahh. Our parents better be proud of us. -smirks-

And so tomorrow is back to normal school life. I feel this sense of dreadness. ): You know I keep thinking that tomorrow is still a holiday. Maybe I'll forget to go school tomorrow. Haha.

And I forsee that my econs MBT is bleahhhhh after post moterm today. ):
Midyears. I'm going to do well for it I promise.

Stupid online game. Now I'm hooked on trying to create a character. HAHA.

Yesterday was fun. (:
I love my OG. [Err. A quarter of it. Haha.]
Timothy, Stella, Wan Jing, Ying Han, Daniel and Varun went.

Initially wanted to bowl, but in the end forsaked the idea coz it was not worth the price. Went down to TM and caught The Spiderwick Chronicles. Not bad not bad. Rather funny at certain parts and scary at the others.

Stella was being very high as usual. Haha.
All her lame crappy nonsenses. I'll start laughing when she's around. Coz the way she say things are just so funny. Why didn't she stay in mj. ):

Went Daniel's house after that. Played cards. Ass-hole Taidee. Funny as usual.
There was this round when Daniel's cards were so lousy.

-Card when reached his turn was Spade of Fours-

Daniel: Pass.
Varun: Eh. I never see wrongly right. That card is a four right!


Know why. All his cards were below five.

):
Why can't yesterday just go on and on.
Now I miss them already.

Stella: EH DANIEL. DO YOU FEEL GUILTY.
Daniel: Huh for what.
Varun: Why she so random.

Ooooh. I want to see them again.

Air Force. ADA. ):
Praying hard that it'll be fine.



Happy Ester. (:

In the morning I took out my previous diaries to read coz I was just so bored.
And I remembered things that were said and done before. Haha.
Like: FIL. Do you remember that time during career seminar talk that stupid lame game we played.

"If ______ comes for teaching talk, then ________________."
And Atiqah that _______________ invovles you! HAHA. Tell you when I see you in school to refresh your memories. HAHA.

And Louis Chua you once said: "Just remember. Love does not need words. It's there coz it's there."

Hard to tell yeah. Behind that seemingly [And still is] EGOISTIC face lies someone so sentimental. Hahaha.
Some kind of people. The better you get to know them, the more you'll find out about their good points.
But there are also some people. The more you know them, the uglier they seem.
[Not like they were any pretty/handsome in the first place. And no. Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying I'm of any standard.]

And I was thinking what took me so long to realise.
You know. Someday. Someday I'll just be able to say those words out loud.
I'll be waiting for that.

Finally bought Ice Princess vcd to watch. Was contemplating between that or The Game Plan or Stardust.
I like this kind of stories I don't know why. Haha.
Not bad not bad.
It's about how we should follow our dreams and everything. Cliche but put across in a rather original way.
And I like to watch Ice Skating. So nice. Something I'll never ever be able to do.

Terrible headache.
I keep thinking today's Saturday. :/
Looking forward to tomorrow. OG OG OG. (:

Ooooh. Interesting news. And let's see how long this will last yeah.
I say less than a month.

Happy Good Friday.
Just do your best and let God do the rest.
Something I wanted to post during block tests. But I didn't come online so I'm posting it now coz it's linked.

Just came back from a long day walk at Vivo.
And I just realised Vivo has lots of area I have yet to comb. Shall go there another day again.

Decided to catch a movie last minute. Houton. Oh gosh. It's like a total waste of time. It's just cute and everything laa. Other than that ermmm. Hahaha.
Should have chose Water Horse instead.

Nowadays youngsters...
Dumbstuck.
The world is changing rapidly. And I wonder what caused the massive turn about in their thinking and behaviour. And even their language. Tsktsk. What's the world turning to.
Haha. I'm so glad I'm born in my year.

Nothing much to blog about.
Enjoyed myself pretty much today.
Like I always do. (:
And I'm still hooked onto that Jay Chou song.
Ask Louis and he'll tell you I keep annoying him with my
"天灰灰 会不会 让我忘了你是谁"

Ahhh.
I dread going back to school next week. ):
Which reminds me.

Jin Jian: Eh. Monday have to go back for chemistry prac right.
Us: HUH. Need meh. You go back yourself laa.
Jin Jian: Eh I don't mind leh. Then you all will miss source A.
Us: What is Source A.
Jin Jian: -stunned-
Us: SKILL A.

Hahaha.
He's a natural joker can. In born talent.

Warning: LONG post ahead.



I'll be happy if I get at least 40 for maths. YES. That's how bad I'll get.

Me: The most I can get for maths is like 35?
Le Dung: HUH. So high arh.

Haha. We're all in this together.

Maths was seriously sucky. I totally skipped the AP GP question. Didn't even bother reading coz I didn't study that topic. Plus all the others which I left blank. Gah. Chem was dumb. I don't know why I can't do those stupid solubility crap. Didn't study. And I can't remember the stupid mechanism. Haha. Alright. Alright. It's over.

Went TM with the girls and guys after that.
Damn funny. Everyone were in a cranky mood. And Jin Jian was being damn lame and he and jean kept bickering.

JJ: You know my mum very funny leh. She called me at 5.15 and told me to be home by 5.
LOL.

Just read Ger's blog AND yeah I just have to make a comment about her statement. Haha.

"some guys will really do their best to make it for a girl . but some just wont or majority . i thought this was what i'm only thinking . but it proves me wrong . everyday a girl is WAITING for a guy to give her surprises . and the worst is the guy noes but he dont do it . or even when the girl ask the guy to do it, the guy still wont . & i think guys should really think how the girl feells ."

NOT TRUE. Haha. At least that's not what I want and not what I'm waiting for.
Because all these won't last right. Sweetness will fade. What's most important is understanding and everything practical. Something that will keep it there for life. Maybe once in awhile of sweetness is nice but even if there isn't I find it alright. Coz every little things is considered sweet enough. No? Then isn't it time to consider the basis of your love. If it's just built on sweetness or what. Ever wondered what will happen once the sweetness fades as time goes by? Will the love be still there. Will you feel the same for the person.

And well. If understanding comes with sweetness, then it's a bonus right. If it doesn't, then well. Maybe it's just your luck. Or it's just meant to be. Haha.

And in response to JM's entry.
JM: Hey girl. Don't stress yourself too much yeah. It's good to be consistent with your work. And yeah. You can still play and work at the same time. Don't be like me. Played through my J1 years. Haha. And let's say I'm suffering now. Especially for maths. Charlene. 10 questions a day. Hahaha.


Was at times just now and read the sypnosis of Mitch Albom's book. For One More Day. And it really set me thinking. If you're given a chance to unwind time, what would you have changed. Regrets are the scariest. I think it's the worst feeling you can ever feel. It'll lead to sadness, then anger then yeah. You feel awful all over. It's inevitable but we learn along the way. Life is too short for regrets yeah.

I don't know what's wrong with me these few days but I think there's really something wrong with me these few days. I've no idea what I'm thinking and I've no idea WHY I'm thinking that. You know. It's like haunting you wherever you go. Just that you can do nothing about it and let it play and play and play.

Maybe it's just one of those days.
Sometimes I wonder if it's just only me or..
Just leave that hanging.
There's no way I'll know anyway. And what difference will it make.

I want a photo album.
Then I can take all the pictures in my head
put them in the album
and close it.

Haven't been blogging for very long.
Didn't come online so yeah.
Let's see.
Been going to the airport during the hols to... slack. HAHA.
As in. Efficiency rate is really low.
Plus out of 7 days, I was not feeling well for like half of the hols. Argh.

Okay.
And so the day has finally come to sit for the papers.
2 down.
2 more to go.
Today's papers are manageable I think BUT I screwed up big time.
Carelessness here and there. ):
Oh wells.
"IT'S JUST BLOCK TESTS."
HAHHA.

I want wed to hurry come and yet I don't want wed to hurry come.
Coz I'm SUPER unprepared for maths and abit of chem.
Don't think le.
Wed hurry come.

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I have no idea why he must take off his top in the middle of the song. No link? Haha. Oh wells. I like the chorus.

天灰灰 会不会 让我忘了你是谁
I like this line a lot I have no idea why.

Hmm.
So many plans after block tests.
I'm finally meeting my OG this weekend. So happy. (:

AND so. I choing-ed all 8 portions of the big big MAJOR organic chem just now.
Like argh. Information overload.
I always seem to feel the sense of urgency to do something the last minute.
They should have tests every single day. That will make me study every day yeah.

And I hate hate rainy days when I'm out.
It's the most disgusting weather ever.
Puddles here puddles there.
And it's not a small patch you know. It's one big lump there blocking your way at the traffic lights. And you have to cross them. Argh.
Disgusting.

Airport airport.
Was there for the whole morning and afternoon.

Block test Block test Block test Block leave Block test Block test Block test Block leave Block test Block test Block test Block leave Block test Block test Block test Block leave Block test Block test Block test Block leave Block test Block test Block test Block leave Block test Block test Block test Block leave

Argh.
I'm in a cranky mood.

So why don't you try pushing my limits.
Can't you be more normal.

No wonder no wonder.

Don't ask me what I was talking about. Coz it's nothing related to you people. So yeah. Don't bother.

Was blog hopping. And guess what. I just realised I seem to be the only one who has not started anything much and yet not nervous. HAHA. AM I WEIRD OR WHAT.
And hmm. I think I'm pretty dead for block tests.
I DON'T WANT MY PARENTS TO GO DOWN AND SEE THE TEACHERS OR ANYTHING!
But yeah. Face it. There's no way I can finish everything. Especially Maths. Like wth. J1 topics till now?! Madness!

OKAY.
Physics: Try my best for J2 topics. F & D can just give up.
Chemistry: Organic chem organic chem organic chem. I'll come to love you somehow.
Econs: HMMMMMMMM. COMMON SENSE. But the questions might be hard to do.
Maths: ....

Yep.
OKAY.
BYEBYE.

亲爱的，那不是爱情

教室里那台风琴叮咚叮咚叮咛
像你告白的声音动作一直很轻
微笑看你送完信转身离开的背影
喜欢你字迹清秀的关心

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因为太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因为太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明

太美的承诺因为太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明
----------

Her voice's very high.
Very bright as well.
When can I reach that kind of standard.

Let's see.
I went to bed at 9pm plus yesterday. Woke up a few times due to phonecalls. Then this morning I woke up at 10am plus. Went back to sleep after breakfast. Woke up at 1pm plus for lunch. Sat on the sofa and tried to study Chem Periodic Table, but failed coz nothing's going in. Went back to sleep until 5 plus. There.
If any teachers are reading this, it's not my fault that I'm not studying yet! I want to laa. BUT my stupid weak body. ):
Almost fainted in the morning when I was brushing my teeth. Don't know why. Felt dizzy all of a sudden, then I seriously couldn't see. All black, even when my eyes were opened. Then I had to lie on the bed for like half an hour. ):

I'm going out to study tomorrow. Hopefully my body doesn't fail me again.
Stupid stupid.

AHHHHHHH.
BLOCK TESTS. ): ):

And Doctor's going to kill me on thursday because I haven't finished organic chem.

Oh.
I think I'm so dead for block tests.
Coz I just slept my whole afternoon off.

GP was... ER. HAHAHA.
My essay is so screwed. I wrote like off point. If not, I would have scored. Gahh.
AQ and summary was rubbish. Don't know what I was writing.
And my stupid nose kept running throughout the paper. I used the whole packet of tissue can. Don't know what's wrong also.

On my way home, I felt real sick. Very sudden yeah. In the morning I was okay, 3 hours later not. Blahh.
So yeah, that explains what I slept the whole day.

Why is it that I'm always sick when nearing exam periods.

I'm tired again. Dizzy dizzy.
The room is spinning. ):

But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me

You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
would just kill me if I'm on my own

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
one more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
when we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did
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Nice nice.

_______: Hello.
Me: Hello ____ ____.
_______: Wrong number. Haha.
Me: Eh but is you call me de lor.


One of the stupid things we do.

GP IS TOMORROW.
And I forgot all about how to do AQ already! -dies-

My mind's unweaving/ 11:42 AM

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Hmm.
I think I'm rather dead. My printer's spoilt so I can't print out information to study for GP essay. Hmmmmm... HOW. Hahaha.

And yesterday. Woah. Nervous-ness for I don't know what reason. I think the same time next year I'll just die of nervousness for my own results on the spot can. lol.
Hmm. Both my OGLs did rather okay laa.
Haha. So funny to see Jean, Fil, Keyi and Charlene being nervous with me as well.

Went for lunch just now with my relatives then kbox with Ger, Pris and Gary. Gary treated us for it. Haha. (:
Sang and sang and now I'm coughing like mad. Gosh. So funny just now.

Yepyep. Off to complete some stuffs.
Block test block test.
I've no motivation at all. Gahhh.

My mind's unweaving/ 7:28 PM

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Okay. I'm so confused.
Hahaha.
Okayokay. Shall wait patiently for the story then.

Feeling damn tired now.
I think I'll end up sleeping very soon since there's like no one online to entertain me. And I'm feeling rather horrible now. Physically I mean. Don't know why. I'm so weak. ): So Jean, if you're reading this, and I'm not online, means I'm sleeping.
Hahaha.

Seriously, days after chem test has been SLACK. I mean. It's like holiday mood already laa.

Tomorrow's the day. Wheee~
I pray that you are alright. Stupid rain, stupid road march. ):

Meow x3.

And yeah. I was thinking randomly. MAYBE I should have taken Arts instead. Look at my Sciences. Waa. Pathetic state. The only subjects I'm scoring in are Econs and GP. [NOT that they're anywhere of standard either.] And yeahhh. I think I'll do better in humanities, as past experiences have greatly proven. Hence, by mathematical induction, P is true for all values. [Pk is true for all values/ P is true for all values of K???!]
[OKAY. I'VE CLEARLY FORGOTTEN MY MATHEMATICAL INDUCTION.]

AND YES.
JM IF YOU'RE READING THIS,
That stupid Julius cheated my feelings.
They're fine now I think.
YES JULIUS IF YOU'RE READING THIS, YOU'RE SO DEAD.
So much for being concern!
Haha.
But well. Glad that everything's fine. (:
Yay yay yay.

Slacked during GP and after finishing our work. Mrs Seng didn't come. A group of us played murderer at the back of the class and the "Hi Henry, yes Henry, Tell Henry" game. Made me laugh like siao. So funny laa.

And. So the highlight of the day was Puay Kai's spastic ball game and LJ's childcare centre for spastic kids, with Jean and Fil as the kids. Lol. Damn funny.

"May you have more friends."

lol.
LJ is full of craps.
-------------

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness gets us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And I show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
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Hope comes along with letting go.
It's enough already right. It's enough.
I've given enough.

And no no.
I'm NOT emo-ing. Just thinking a lot. Haha.
I'm forever thinking a lot.

My mind's unweaving/ 8:10 PM

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

I'm so disturbed I don't know why.
Went to Ger's blog moments ago and after talking to Julius on the phone, yeahhh. I think it is what I think it is.

"Are you thinking what I'm thinking Banana 1?"

OKAY. Random. Don't even know if it's the correct sentence. Haha.

And yes. You owe me an explanation. Like woahh. So sudden. Madness!!!
EHHHHHHHH. DIDN'T WE AGREED TO BREAK THE NEWS TOGETHER AFTER MY ALEVELS. HOW CAN YOU PANGSEH ME!
And! I don't know I don't know. I didn't even mean it that way when I said what you thought I said. Haha. So amusing. I can't even remember what I said before.
But yeah. That's not the point. The point is. What excatly happened!
And yes. The whole cycle about accepting someone for who he/she is surfaces again! Seeeee.
It's such a sad news.
One thing for sure: You never know what's around the corner.

Do all "forever planned" relationships have to end this way?
Are these really just lip services or do some actually mean what they say.

The end of forever.

My mind's unweaving/ 10:28 PM

Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance

Optimism. Hahaha.
And even when life seems an all turn down, just smile, coz you know that it can't get any worse than this. The skies will clear again.
Just randomness. My life is fine. I guess. Apart from my studies.

Chem was tyco. Managed to scrape through I have no idea how.
And maths was... Blah.

OH.
AND I JUST REMEMBERED.
I was almost late for school today.
I woke up at 6.50, then fell asleep again for 1hr! Gosh. When I woke up again I looked at my hp and it said 7.50. Slowly I got up and went to wash up, only to realise that it's like 30 more mins to school. HAHAHA. I practically dashed out of the house can. Blur blur me.
And this is probably the first time I ran so fast in my past 2 years. HAHAHA.
And guess what. I wasn't late. Wheee. (:
Praise the Lord.

My dad was in a crappy mood just now.
Kept nagging at my brother for I don't know what reason.
-nags- -nags- -nags-

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by
learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

So niceeee.
Yepyep. Very true.
AND YES. Eve. Hahaha. I'm not thinking about this laa. Just happened to come across this quote.
And stupid Louis's suan-ing me about how slow I am to come across that phrase. Fine fine.

Block test block test.
Why is it called block test anyway.

My mind's unweaving/ 8:34 PM

Monday, March 3, 2008

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

And Doctor's so going to call my parents up.

Doctor: Those who fail your test you're going to get it from me. Heh heh heh. Call your parents.

):
I did study alright. But nothing stayed. Gahhh.

And yeah. I know my past entries have been kinda emo.
But nooo. I'm fine.
Just feeling complicated and fuzzy and sentimental when I'm blogging, that's why all that stuffs came out.
Yepyep. Nothing much happened laa. But thanks to all for the concern. (:

I'm tired and I've been slacking ever since I came home.
Not intending to do any work today. Like seriously.
What's there to do anyway.
My brain is shutting down. I can't think. It feels so dreamy now. Lalala. I think I'll just fall asleep if I were to close my eyes for even 1 second.
Yep. And that's when you know you have to go and SLEEP.

And.
Yeah yeah. So what if you're better in that way?
Still you're nothing compared to _______.
WAY different.
Never judge a book by its cover. (:
Don't bother figuring what I'm talking. Haha.

A-level results this friday. (:
I'm so glad I'm rid of chinese. I haven't touched that for like how many 1268750 million years. [Except when I go metta for SLC.]
And no. I couldn't care less about chinese results.

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

My mind's unweaving/ 9:02 PM

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Had extreme feelings today.
Rah.
But yeah. I'm fine.

Hmm.
The issue about whether feelings will change when you realise the person isn't as perfect as you think he/she is has surfaced.

And yeah.
In this century, I guess it's not surprising to see people claiming that they love the other, yet saying things like "I'm sorry. But I just couldn't handle it." when you realise the person's true colours.
Have you ever wondered that maybe it's because IN THE FIRST PLACE, you didn't even understand what a person he/she is like. And I guess most may claim that the reason for falling for the other is "OH. I can relate to you well."
Or maybe it wasn't love at all.
Isn't love about accepting and loving the person for who they are.
Or maybe yeah. It wasn't strong enough to handle it.
Look at those primary school kids, or even secondary.
They get into bgr at such young age, and how many will actually last yeah. And they say things like "EUU WILL ALWAYS BE MY LUBBB." [Okay. I can't twit. It's downright disgusting. And I take ages just to read one sentence. SERIOUSLY. Languages like this spoil english! Charlene please educate them on correct english. Hahaha. Or Jean, you can teach them your simplified english. "No bell." lol.]
And then one week later it's breakup. Then the whole cycle repeats.
What's the world becoming to?
When I have my own kids in the future, I'll make sure they don't end up like that.

Okay. Back to the point.
So yeah. BOTTOMLINE: Love is accepting someone for who they are.
There. Short and sweet.

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

Apparently, you're still breathing and you've stopped dreaming.

And the new version of MSN seems... pretty the same to me. Except for the layout colours and blah.
Yeah.
I want a new blog layout. But I'm too lazy and rusty to make one.
Eveeeee. -SMILES- LOL.

YES. I've been slacking for the whole day in case you're wondering. Only read through 11 pages of Nitrogen compounds notes! Gosh. ):

My mind's unweaving/ 10:33 PM

AS USUAL.
I WASTED MY TIME slacking the whole day.
I NEVER get anything done when I'm at home can. Unless it's like 1 day before the exam. Gosh.

Going out of the house soon.
Sigh sigh sigh.

And I was wondering.
When you've done something wrong, like things went terribly wrong, how many people actually get the forgiveness for their mistakes?
And. I used to wonder why is it so difficult to forgive someone after you've been terribly hurt or something like that.
But now I know the answer.
I don't know how long it'll take. A year? 2? Or maybe not at all.

It's no one's fault. Grew up, things just change, and then yeah. It's gone like that.
But still. The hurt is inflicted and no amount of 'sorry's is enough I guess. I've tried. But I just can't. Or maybe I don't want to.

6 more months.
All there is to endure is just 6 more months.

And.
When there's someone who can hurt you, there's always someone who can heal.
I've done my part already, but look what I've got in return.
Then again, there's always someone who can heal in return.
And I won't end up in your footsteps.

Tell me have you ever been in a
Situation where the best thing you could do
Is the hardest thing you've ever done
But you try to do what's right

And Atiqah, if you're reading this: CHEER UP ALRIGHT.
We'll always be here for you. (:

My mind's unweaving/ 12:46 PM