Hmm. So back from my long day out.
Left house with like.. $6 in my EZ-link card and came back with only $2 plus left. LOL. Where the hell did I go man.

Basically, we went Hafiza's pretty pretty house to bake cookies for Metta kids. [Childrens' Day] And goshh. We didn't follow the recepie according and then it turned out disasterious for the first time. And Hafiza's mummy came to save the day. lol.


And it finally worked. lol. Nice rightttt.

Yep. My first time baking experience and ermm. Quite fun lah actually.
Hafiza's small sister is so cute laa. And she gave us water babies! HAHAHA.
Don't even know excatly what is that but it sounds like a breed of amoeba which replicates by binary fission. Then again, we may be tricked about the replication part. lol.


Left: See the coloured balls. She claims they are water babies. lol.
Right: And it actually looks like and feels like marbles. Pretty.

Sigh. So bored. bored bored bored. Why is life after promos so pathetic.

I'm supposed to be leaving house in 20mins time so gotta make this fast.

Okay. And now I'm left with 10mins coz Jean says hurry up so maybe we can go play at her house playground after we've done our cookie ingredients shopping. haha.

Slept at like.... 2.30am ytd.
Was doing stupid things which was so fun actually. lol.
And some idiot says I can sleep then don't want to sleep.
Thanks to that idiot for everything anyway. You know who you are.





I typed those chinese words in 5mins and the english ones in 15seconds. See the difference.

Gosh. I'm having a headache now.
Stupid stupid.
Must be ytd. Gahh.
Shoo. Go away.

Haha. Life after promos should be fun.
Yet I'm not excatly happy after all.
But well.
If I have only one wish,
it's...

For me to know and you don't have to find out.
lol.

And after 4 frigging days of battle...

























Fil. Me. Come to think of it. Fil arhh. You don't look spastic here on second look. HAHA.

Omggg.
Tmr's promos.
And I'm online.
But arhh. Cannot blame me coz I need to like get my info for GP right. HAHA.

Fil and I are like researching things on Education and Crime and Punishment.
Or rather. She's sending me the info. HAHA
Thanks darling. :D

For now. Throw away everything and mug hard for gp.
And I realised how dead I am for all my subjects.

Physics: I hope I still rmb how to do everything. It has been like... 3 days since I touched it.

Maths: Goshhh. I can't get recurrence, ap gp summation blah crap right. I spent like 4hrs READING vectors ytd and thank God I know how to do. BUT STILL. GAH.

Chem: UMM. I just started reading through today. Organic chem sux. Don't like don't like.

Econs: AHAHA. I better go dig my grave. I haven't started ANYTHING on Econs yet. And Fil says there's a lot to memorise. :/

Never felt so stressed before in my life.
Like seriously.
Olevels was like... ahaha. Nothing.
Ohman.
Please please please. I don't want to get retain.
PRAY HARD.

It's like... 2am plus now and I'm online.
First time can. [Beside the times I stayed over at Ger's]

Went school library to mug as usual in the morning and stayed till 6 plus.
And I went home and slept after dinner.
Till like 12am.

I still can't believe I actually woke up and studied.
For like 2 hrs.
Then Filza said she's online so I came online. hahaha.
And waa. Currently chatting with like 4ppl.
Madness.
On my contact list, there are like about 10 JC ppl online.
Owls.

Oh.
And I'm so dead for Maths.
I can't do a single question of AP, GP, Summation, Recurrence crap.
Omgggg.

My sleeping pattern is so so weird now lah.
Sheesh.
Should I stay up till dawn.
The feeling of being up when half the world is sleeping is so cool.
Hahaha.
But at this rate I'll die soon.

And the school library's now my second home for this study break.
I have so many homes.
HAHA.

Stayed in school from 8.30am to like 6pm.
Rather productive I would say.
Chiong-ed physics today and I'm almost done with the revision package.
I must say that momentum is rubbish.
%$#^&!

Finally getting a hang of physics. Really hope I can at least get a D and not disappoint Mr Cha. :/



And Mr Soh's so sweet.

On the last day of school he gave everyone of us this personalized msg thingy which he wrote some encouragements.

Haha.
And he mentioned in mine:
"Cheer up and smile often because you're a star"

HAHAH.
Awww.




Was quite encouraged to do well for Maths after that sentence. hahaha.
But well... I haven't started serious revision for maths yet. :/

Howhowhow.
I think I'm so dead.
3 more days to promos.
And I'm betting everything on Maths and Physics.
I can't believe I'm actually not putting much hopes on chem.
When it's sth I like more than physics.
But arhhhh. Organic chem sux. ):
Never did well in that since Secondary years.

Pleasepleaseplease.
I'll mug super duper hard next year
IF I CAN GET PROMOTED.
I PROMISE.
HAHAHA.

I haven't been online for ages.
Good job good job. *gives a pat on the back*
BUT. I haven't been mugging fully yet. Ohno. ):

Do you know I slept at like 8.30pm ytd. Then I wanted to wake up at 3am to study.
I did wake up.
Went to the table and didn't feel like studying. So I went back to sleep.
HAHHA.
This will be my daily routine till Sunday I guess.
SLEEP BY 9PM!
Seriously, I can't seem to study after 6pm. lol.

Just read Fil's blog.
Extract:

felicia sent me a message. here's how it goes:
anw, in case u're wondering. i cried ytd cos umm. if u really choose to retain or sth then my j2 life will be so miserable. lol! im gg to sleep alrd. ohmy :(

one reason i edited my post yesterday was because of this reason.
just made me think back. and then i realise, maybe i do not want to give up and leave everything that i have behind just like that. maybe, it wouldnt hurt to endure another year of physics. besides, if i really follow my heart and choose the job that i really want, this wound't be much of a problem.

.
.
.

so, all in all, i'll try not to get retained ;D
so, don't worry fel. i wont leave youu.
i want to be in J2.
emoing together.
getting all excited over eyecandies together.
mugging for As together.
yeah. i'll mug hard. ;D
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Haha. To tell you the truth, when I read that msg you sent bout thinking of getting retained to switch to bio, I just cried.
That breakfast was the longest I ate. Coz I kept going to the toliet to cry.
I didn't know why seriously. hahaha.
Maybe because, like what I've said, without you JC life will be so miserable. And I really mean that.
So yea.
Didn't want to tell you why I cried coz it sounded so stupid.
And I'm acting like a small girl. haha.
But ahhh.
I was thinking and it came to mind that I'll be very contented if all of us can be in the same class together next year.

So yea.
Motivation to mug hard. (:
5 more days.
9 more days to freedom.
Then it's stupid PW.

And ohyes.
I must say that I officially hate that stupid hairy gorilla to the core.
I didn't even do anything and you come and get on my nerves.
What's your frigging problem.
Gofoandfnddiefie.

Omggg.
This song is so so so so touching.
):

Anw.
Hmmm.
Ytd was fun.
UM.
Though I was like slacking for the whole day.

Went school for chem time trial.
Didn't really study much.
And we were like saying pon the whole thing and go for Macs breakfast.
HAHA.

After the whole thing, Filza and I didn't mug in school in the end as earlier planned.
Went white sands KFC with Filza, [She didn't eat lah] Le Dung and JinJian. Oh. And Cheryl.
TKGS and VS gang. hahaha.

Crapped. Gossiped. Blahh.

Goshh.
We so love slacking.
):

Then Fil stayed with me until like 3plus.
And Ger's dad fetched me at West Plaza.
New car which is so bloody cool and can open at the top.
Was trying to be funny and tried standing up and waved. HAHA.

Went Gleneagles to visit my aunt who just gave birth to my girl cousin.
Natalie.
So cute.
HAHA.
Her 3rd kid already. Along with Nicole and Ethan, our youngest cousins.


Natalie darling.
Another one for me to play with. haha. (:



And I so love Nicole and Ethan.
Damn hyper and cute lahh.
hahaha.
Like they'll start running to you and hop onto you.
The best part is.
They never cry when they fall down. And instead, climb up and starts running again.

And this is so funny.

Dad: Ethan. Don't shout. Baby sleeping.
Ethan: *Runs away* AHHHH! AHHH! AHHHH!

So cute right.



You know I always thought this was carnation.
And I argued with Ger who said it was a daisy.
And we even went to down to the flower shop to check.
And it's daisy. ):
HAHA.
Cheat my feelings.

But still, my ultimate love is


CALLA LILLY.
[The white one]

HAHA.
My wedding bouquet will definitely be this.
So pretty pretty.


Ger and I.
With the balloon Nicole was playing with.


Us with baby Natalie.

Went Ger's house after dinner.
And we watched this tape of us when we were young. Video. Damn damn funny. Especially Gary. Omgg. And of course me lah. I look so toot can. HAHA.


Ger and I. With her tatty bears. LOL.

Alright. Promos promos.
):

12 more days to freedom.
FREEDOM. (:

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do

I swear I'm mad.
It's already Friday.
And I haven't done anything productive.

What's worst is
I'm addicted to playing on the piano.
HAHA.
Such a weird timing.
Yes I know.
It's like I never play on the piano like for how long already and now I've the urge to play.

I should just dig my own grave. ):

And I'm still not feeling the stress.
Every recess we're still like a bunch of happy ppl
going study benches or behind the LT SLACKING.
Ytd we played Indian Poker.
I bet those who saw us thought we were mad.
Everyone seems to be mugging their socks off and yet we're like
PLAYING CARDS.

HAHAHA.
But it was fun. (:




LOL.
Things are changing.
It's obvious.
And I don't know where this is heading to.
But seriously, who cares about what others think of you.
As long as you're happy.

And I'm beginning to see what reality is like.
Full of politics and all sorts of faces.
Different ppl different personalities.
And it's quite scary to think that there are such ppl existing.

And I just remembered that my tuition teacher once told me that a person can have 46 split personalities. Imagine changing personalities every half and hour. Okay. Randomness. It just came to mind.

Back to the point.

One phrase to describe everything:
This is a scary scary world.

And when everything comes crashing down
where are you to comfort me
and let me know you'll be there for me.
Will you even be there.
Do you even know what I'm going through.

Even if I told you,
would you even bother to care.

HAHA.
Just wanted to blog.

Hmmm.
Today was quite a fun day.

After econs lecture, me, Keyi, Filza and Jean slacked around in the LT. We just sat there like idiots and waited for everyone to go off.
Then we did stupid things like going down to the front and speaking into the mike [Fil and Keyi did that. Not me.]
And camwhored. (:






The LT looks so pretty when it's empty.
Whee. (:

Hmm.
And we spent most of the time during double GP telling jokes. HAHA.
Heard a funny conversation along the way.

Danial: Now is already like 1/3 of the journey. Eh no. 2/3.
Lee Jin: No what. is half.
Danial: JC is 1 and a half years leh.
Lee Jin: No. Is 3 years. *gave that teddy bear smile and laughed*

HAHAHA.
Took me awhile to register.
NO LEE JIN.
JC IS 2 YEARS FOR ME.

Fun fun day. (:
Except that during PE we played basketball with S502 girls and well.. most of the time I was trying to run away from the ball. HAHA.

And this morning I realised JM msged me ytd.
I think I was sleeping when I read that msg so I didn't realise I actually read it.

It went like this:

Hey girl, this is a verse tt I want to encourage you with:)

Jeremiah 29:11-13

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Keep striving for your promos. (:

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Awww. So sweet right.
It's msges like this that's so unexpected yet short and sweet that makes your day.
Thanks dear.
Catch up after all the horrible rubbish.
And all the best for your Os too! (:

Alright.
Get off the com.
Chemistry revision today.
Please don't fall asleep.
Anyone who reads this please msg me or sth to tell me to STUDY.

More jokes tmr please. (:

Don't you just love personality tests?

The Clothes You Wear
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test102.aspx

What others see from your style

You probably live in your own little world and studiously avoid having to search for your own identity. You may feel that you are not loved, and being in your imaginary world is your way of coping with this. You get moody easily.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are a caring people. You are romantic, witty, and easygoing. You compromise rather than confront, and love nature.

What others see from your belts

If there's not a single belt in your wardrobe, you like freedom and are opposed to all kinds of rules. You are creative and very good at work that requires you to stretch your imagination. Your main downfall, however, is that you can be very moody.

What others see from your shoes

You are kind and open-minded. You may not be talkative, but you are friendly and enjoy the company of intelligent people. You always keep the secrets of others, and never play tricks on people.

What others see from your earrings

You are probably a free spirit at heart with artistic talent. You are absolutely unique and are always coming up with lots of great ideas. Being happy is your most important goal.

The last analysis

You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

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HAHAH.
Omg.
This is so cute.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test100.aspx

Not that I've done it yet.
But ermmm. LOL.
I wonder if it really works.

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Swimsuits reflect your personality
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test99.aspx

Here is the analysis:You are extremely sensitive and the smallest criticism can profoundly hurt your feelings. When you are not happy with something, you let it show. You are a candid person, but sometimes people might wish you were less of a drama queen.

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How well do you get along with others?
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test97.aspx

Here is the analysis:You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too. You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return. When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be.

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What type of personality do you have?
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test79.aspx

Here is the analysis:
Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test77.aspx

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How deep is your love?
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test60.aspx

Depth: 63%You have him in a corner of your heart. Don't lie to yourself; he's your special guy. Take good care of your heart. You still have a long way to go. Always remember that love has two edges. Being apart for a while might be a good chance to proof his love to you.

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Okay. I think I'm mad.
:/

And monday breezed past just like that.

Today was a rainy day.

But I like it.
I like looking out of the window and staring at the raindrops falling down.
But I hate it when you're caught in the rain.

I rmb that time in TKG.
It was raining damn heavily.
Think it was around this time of the year last year.
Everywhere was like flooded.
Even when walking in school you'll get drenched.
And everyone were screaming and shouting.

HAHA.
So fun.
I miss those days.

13 more days to promos.
Somehow the stress hasn't set in yet.
Ohmy.
Someone please scream at me.

Was feeling rather pissed just now on the way home.
But when I passed by this house with opened doors,
suddenly a small girl [around 4years old or so?] ran to the door and smiled at me.
And that really lightened up my mood.

Children are so innocent.
That's why I like playing with them.
They make it seem as if your presence matters a lot.
Coz they're always so happy when you're playing with them.
And somehow you'll feel needed.

Today I realised how insignificant I am to you.
How even a simple thing like that can slip off your mind.
And how it felt to be thrown aside.
Not taken seriously, not important.
And that's when you know you just don't matter anymore.

And you'll begin to wonder why you came.

The Airport has became my 2nd home ytd and the day before.
Was there from 10am-9pm on Friday,
and 8am-7pm ytd.

Delifrance at T1 is amazingly a wonderful place to study.
I love the ambience.
It's like.. everyone's studying as well.
So there'll be a motivation not to slack.

Plus the food there was nice too.
Just that I used up like 30bucks in 2 days. :/
The worst thing is I can't figure out what I spent on.

The best part was.
Everyone was treating as if that place was their homes.
*looks down and see huang yu's feets on the chair beside me*



My wonderful study partners.
Along with Atiqah and Filza. [and even Fil's sister came to join us]

And omg.
Huang Yu is damn smart. She practically knows everything we asked her.
ZOMG.
Or maybe I'm just too dumb?



And I stayed at home today.
Like how boring.
No nice teabreaks,
no nice air con.
Okay. Maybe the air con there was abit too cold.
HAHAHA.
Poor Fil kept complaining she's cold.

Excatly 2 weeks left. [excluding today since I'm not studying anymore]
And I realised how dead I am.
I have no frigging idea how to do my promos revision packages.
Maths. Chem.
And I haven't done physics yet.
Zomg.

"Let's go dig our graves."
This line sounds awfully familiar.
I think I said that before for
Sec 1-3 EOY exam.

Hopefully I'll survive through this horror again.
I must.
Must must.

Just drill this into your mind:
I don't want to wait another year.

And.
I don't want another year of PE.
HAHAHA.

This should be enough motivation to keep me going.

And I love those words in brown.
Just seems to be very accurately depicting facades.

I wonder.
Will ppl start to treat others differently
just because you realise
that he/she turned out not to be who you thought to be.
Will they stop loving them?

But.
If this can ever happen,
then that'll be so superficial.
And who excatly did you love in this case.
The nice side of the person?

Love is
loving everything.
The good and the bad.

OKAY.
what am I talking.
Random thinkings.
There's sth I wanna say,
but I can't seem to put it in words.

I had a pretty pretty dream today.
Too beautiful that I didn't want to wake up.
If only it'll happen.
If only.

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.


Was doing personality tests.
HAHA.

Omg.
I'm so drained.
Updates some other day.
Bye world.

Found this personality test on YC's blog.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Results

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
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Hmmm.
Pretty true.
hahaha.

You know I was doing organic chem tutorial. The introduction one. And I did only the FIRST QUESTION [has 5 parts] which is the drawing of the full structural crap and naming, and I got sick of it already.
So the smart me decided to on the com...

and now I'm stuck here.

ZOMG.

And my stupid neighbour upstairs's being irritating. Seems likes there are some renovation going on and it's giving me a headache.

OH.
And do you know I just finished re-watching my Tiny Snow Fairy Sugar [Anime] DVD? Was bored ytd. So I just on-ed in. In the end I finished all the 24 episodes from ytd till today.

-faints-

Someone please scream at me.

Oh. And I just remembered one more weird thing about me.
Had inspirations from Atiqah's post. HAHAHA.

Atiqah's weird thing about herself is that she talks to herself.
But I tend to talk to birds. And any other animals.

HAHAHA.
Okay. Is that weird?
Oh wells.

Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

Tagged by Twinnie.[Junying]
This is sth really long ago on her blog. But I keep forgetting to do it. HAHA.
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Rules and Regulations:
1) Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves.
2) People who get tagged needs to write in their blog of their own weird things as well and state the rules clearly.
3) In the end, you'll select 5 people to be tagged and list their names


the 6 totally or not so weird things about me :

1. I sleep with my eyes not fully closed. HAHA. I don't know how I do it, but yea. My cousins always complain that I look scary. lol. But I can't help it right.

2. Weird things... Hmmm. Oh. I have contradicting thoughts. Like those seriously at extreme ends.

3. And I can get high one minute, and be really emo the next.

4. I never tied shoelaces until in JC. HAHA.

5. Hmmm. You know I sleep with my blanket fully covered. Even my head. Coz I feel scared if I don't sleep like that. Last time was even worse. I make sure that all the gaps between the blanket and the bed is closed. ermm. I don't know how to explain. But it just means enclosing myself fully in the blanket. HAHA. I wonder how I breathed you know.

6. I like to keep grumbling that I'm so dead for promos and yet I'm doing nothing about it. HAHA.

Ppl I'm tagging:
1. Filza
2. Atiqah
3. Fadilah
4. JM
5. Evelyn

And anyone who wants to do this. (:
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Okay. That was pretty crap.
Am I weird?
LOL.

And this stupid song is playing on my itunes for the 1346805 time.
Thanks to Louis Chua.

Okay. I BETTER MUG TMR.
ARGH.
):

Okay. And this is so funny.
Look at my tagboard.

Sijie: im friggin unproductive too.. slap me n nw got xiao hua xiao cao.. sheet! anw ur clasmates all korean isit? what lee jin, le dung..

Kendra: HAHHAHAHAAH SJ U DAMN LAME LAA!!!! FRENS ALL KOREAN.. SIAO CAN

HAHA. This is so funny. Friends all korean. LOL.
Btw, one is a chinese and the other a Vietnamese.

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

My mind's unweaving/ 9:43 PM

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice

Wow. For once I'm at home.

But seriously arhhhh.

Mugging in school is so much better.

Maybe I should just continue to go back there tmr.

I wasted my whole morning.

Just by thinking about things.

Oh goshhh.

It's really funny.

When how you can feel one moment like this,

and the other the next.

So I realised when you're getting sad over sth,

stop for a minute and let yourself calm down and think.

And you'll realise you can always look at things at another perspective.

Amazingly, the other perspective always makes your mood lighter.

I was reading my old blog.
And this paragraph caught my attention:

Because you live,
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

I'll be waiting for the person whom I say these words to. And I believe that person's somewhere out there. (:
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You know.
Today I was thinking.
Why can't ppl stay the way they were when you first know them.
Why must things change.

But then I know it's just part of my childish insistence that things should be how I want it to be.

All I can think of is:
Maybe you'll be happier if I vanish from your life.
Maybe you're getting tired of me.

The past is a really really beautiful place to be in.
And I'd give up anything to go back to how things were.

to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.

My mind's unweaving/ 11:11 AM

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

I don't wanna know
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore

Went for breakfast at Macs with Fil and Danial.

I alighted one stop before the stop can.

HAHAHA.

And Danial said:

"How dumb can you get."

Pffttt. hahaha.

Okay. Anw, parked ourselves in school at ard 9.40.

Consultations with Mr Cha.

Oh gosh. It was like information overloading.

And for once I understood. LOL.

Then mug mug mug in school. Stayed at the freaking place all the way to 5.30pm.

Waa..

It's quite nice, the environment. Coz everyone's studying as well.

So much better than at home where I'll just on the com [LIKE NOW] or start falling asleep.

If only I can take upon all your sadness

and make it my own.

You know how much I want to stand by you so that you know you're not all alone.

If only you'll let me be there and not push me away everytime.

I feel so useless.

Just what is really on my mind nowadays.

I don't want to know what's all these I'm feeling now.

My mind's unweaving/ 6:37 PM

Monday, September 3, 2007

Goshh..
My nose's killing me.

Fad came back MJ today.
HAHAHA.
We were talking.
And at one point...

Fad: Eh Felicia. Don't cry okay.
Me: huhh. *sneezes into the tissue* [Flu]
Fad: Water already coming out from your nose. So no need to cry.

HAHAHHA.
Omggg.
Fad is like....
DAMN HILARIOUS CAN.

And Fad. Sorry we keep laughing at you.
But it's not at you. It's not your actions. They're damn funny.
Which is a good thing.

Fil was saying about how she used to dislike Fad.
Coz...
Fad stole her toliet cubical.
During Sec 1 swimming enrichment. HAHAHA.
Yes. That's all.
Damn funny.

Seriously arhh.
The ppl you least expect to hit off so well with,
I actually did.

Like.. Filza.
We were lab partners from Sec 3 - 4.
But we never exchanged much words before can.
Like seriously. HAHA.

And Fad as well.
I don't think I talked to her more than 10 lines can.
Except that time when she was Vice chairman and I was the secretary.
Then have to talk.
But other than that..
HAHA. No.
Always thought she was quite dao.

Oh wells..
Tired tired.
WR finally 98% collated.
11.34pm.
I'm tired.
Mentally. Physically.

My mind's unweaving/ 11:13 PM

I'm like the most blur person around.
I actually typed my IC number when asked to log into blogger. HAHAH.
Coz well. MJ's learning portal's using IC number as login name. Gahh.

25 more mins to getting out of the house. Meeting Fil early to mug in school.
I need my sleep.
Slept at like.. 12plus ytd.
And what was I doing?
Nth productive. Wasn't even studying.

Excatly 3 more weeks.

Sometimes I wonder what is the real reason behind why you're acting like this.
Maybe I'm just trying to find excuses to make myself feel better.
For I know things may just not get better after these 4 weeks.
And I don't know what else more to do to save everything.

So please tell me why you're like this.
Maybe reassurances are all I need.

I get my hopes up and watch them fall everytime
Another color turns to gray
And it's just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away.

My mind's unweaving/ 8:03 AM

Sunday, September 2, 2007

I don't know why is it that I always miss you by just a few mintues.
Maybe it's because we're not fated.

Goshhhh.
You know. I tried studying today.
Tried.
I was sitting on the bed and reading chem.
And well.. I don't know why.
The next thing I knew was I was on the bed SLEEPING.
Slept from like 1pm to 7pm??? Ohmy that's like what. 6hrs.
Kill me please.
Okay. I would like to declare I'm not a pig. Well. Maybe I am.
But it wasn't that sort whereby I slept non-stop for 6hrs okayyy.
I woke up here and there. Every... 30mins or so? Coz I was scared my mum will come in and scream at me. HAHA.
But in the end she caught me sleeping when she came in to call me for dinner.
Still... pro ehh. I managed to get away for most of it.

Sheesh. Chem tutorial not done yet. And there's extra lesson tmr. ):

I was thinking..
How we should just say what we want to say to someone and not keep it in the heart.
Simply because,
you never know when is your last breathe.
So..
Maybe sometimes I just want to let you know how much you mean to me.
How much I feel for you.
But yet time and time again you never fail to make me feel that maybe my actions are redundant.
Like no matter what I do it seems wrong to you.

I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Oh gosh. I'm finally done with collating WR.
Almost.
But roughly it's done.
Left some more things to iron out.
Then it'll be fine.
Whee.

Woke up at like 11am plus today.
Almost couldn't eat lunch coz I just had breakfast like 1 hr plus ago. HAHA.
Didn't study.. Gosh.
I'm so so dead.
But at least I did some filing and now my table's looking clear again.
So sleepy..
Zzzz.

we don't need the world right now
we've got time to work it out
hold on tight I'll hold on too
'cause all I need is...

you