Read JM's blog. And what she said made me think a lot.

"Some current incidents have convinced me so much that only the true ones will be there for you in times of trouble. The true ones are those that you can phone and talk to them to the wee hours in the night or even just cab down to their place and cry your heart out just because you needed some company. ........ But then again, isn't it true and sad that when you need someone, none's there?
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..... the one you have always thought of them to be one of the closest but not the best, are always, always, frequently, the ones who endlessly hurt you."
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Guess I agree with what she said. Though someone may have a lot of friends, but I guess not many will be always there standing true when you need them the most. It's only when crisis strike will then you be able to see who's true and who's not. And it sucks when you think about it and find that there are actually not many you can approach.

For me, only one person has stood by there all the way ever since I got to know him last year. And he has not failed to be there everytime, even in the wee hours of the night. Constantly reminding me that I'm not alone and I can approach him anytime. It made me feel bad that I always only approach him when I am down. But just want to let you know [if you're reading this] that you've really played an important role in my life and I'm able to stand strong now is partly thanks to your advices.

This post is random. Had lots of thoughts running through my head when I read her entry just now and just wanted to post about it. But somehow I just can't decipher those feelings and form proper sentences about them.

Now I realise why I regretted not going to bowling with my relatives. The reason being I'll start thinking of things when I'm alone. And all the sad feeling rushes back.

Oh wells.

On a brighter note, this song is really nice.
Eve recommended. Sooo long never get in touch with jap music. Wa. Thanks Eve.



Romanji:
Hajimete itta kimi to no deeto wa
Umi no mieru kouen
Hanashitai koto aru hazu na no ni
Damatta mama toki dake sugi

Boku no kodou ga kimi ni tsutawarisou de
Tsunaideta te wo
Awatete hanashita kedo kimi no me wo mite
Omowazu mata nigirikaeshita

Yagate sugiru kisetsu no naka de
Kimochi surechigai hanareta hibi
Wasuretakutemo wasurerarezu ni
Keitai no ura shashin no naka
Futari no egao mukashi no mama
Boku no senaka wo oshite kimi e to hashiraseta

Mou hanasanai yo
Ima made no boku to wa chigau kara
Suki kimi to zutto te wo tsunagi arukitai yo
Futari ashioto kasanenagara
Kimi to boku no love story
Tsuzuku eien ni...

Kimi ni tsutaetai omoi wa mune no naka
Afureteru kedo
Kotoba ni dekinai you na modokashisa ni
Kimi wo tada dakishimeteta

Kimi ga boku ni kureta egao ga
Nani yori mo boku no takaramono
Ryoute de tsutsunde hoho yosetara
Kimi wa sukoshi hazukashisou ni
Me wo sorashinagara "dame" tte itta
Boku wa kikoenai furi damatte kisu wo suru

Mou kimi no sei de
Boku no mejiri no shiwa ga fueta to shitemo
Kirai ni naranaide
Boku no omoi wa kawaranai yo
Kizamarete yuku kono shunkan
Kimi to boku no love story
Egaku shiawase wo...

Moshimo boku ga saki ni hoshi ni nattemo
Yozora matataite kimi terasu yo
Miageta sora soko ni boku ga iru kara
Itsu datte kimi no koto mimamoritsuzukeru kara

Mou hanasanai yo
Ima made no boku to wa chigau kara
Suki kimi to zutto te wo tsunagi arukitai yo
Futari ashioto kasanenagara
Kimi to boku no love story
Tsuzuku eien ni...

English translations:
On our first date
We went to a park with a view of the ocean
There were so many things I wanted to say to you
But we just spent the time in silence

I was afraid you'd hear my heartbeat
So I panicked
And let go of your hand, but when I looked in your eyes
I grabbed it again without thinking

Eventually the seasons changed
And we grew apart
I couldn't forget, even though I wanted to
The photo on the back of my cell phone
Showed us smiling just like old times
It gave me a push and sent me running to you

I won't let you go again
I'm different now
I love you, I want to always walk with your hand in mine
The sound of our footsteps overlapping
Our love story
Continues forever...

I wanted to tell you about the love
That filled my heart to overflowing
But, irritated at not being able to put it into words
I just held you instead

The smiles you give me
Are my most precious treasure
Cheek to cheek, I wrapped my arms around you
You seemed a bit embarrassed
And looked away, saying, "Don't"
But I pretended not to hear and just kissed you silently

If I get more wrinkles in the corners of my eyes
Because of you
Don't stop loving me
My love won't change
These seconds are ticking away
Our love story
Creates happiness...

If I should become a star before you
I'll twinkle in the night sky and shine on you
I'll be in the sky when you look up
I'll always be watching over you

I won't let you go again
I'm different now
I love you, I want to always walk with your hand in mine
The sound of our footsteps overlapping
Our love story
Continues forever...
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AND she says the translations of some japanese song reminds her of me.

The morning sun slowly creeps in through the window
overflowing onto your dozing eyelashes
The gentle wind is invited into the room
by your sleeping face under the sunbeams
Tender euforia

Even though it's the same old morning
it's dressed in vivid colours
That is the miracle of our chance encounter
You're not alone, because I'm with you
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Like why the hell lahh.

Eve: the lameness of the song?
Eve: and the miracle stuffs
Eve: i thought you believe in those
Eve: so yup comes down to the gullible you
Me: HAHA!!! OKAYYY
Eve: Haha. the innocent stuffs lah. always try to make people happy
Eve: of course i know you're not innocent at all
Me: Umm.
Eve: i think you arh. you & shuzhen complete opposite of me & stella
Me: I think i'm quite different of shuzhen can
Eve: obviously. Shu zhen so much more positive minded. Haiyo. much more hardworking also. definitely looks human. you arh... aiyo. bamboo stick.
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I'm the same as Shu Zhen? UMMM. She's TOO innocent already lahh. hahaha. Just that we both are afraid of getting ourselves dirty and everything. lol!
Fine fine Eve. She NEVER fails to remind me how skinny I am. hahaha.

2 more days left to study. rah.