Yes. I am still online. AHAHA.

Was talking to Sab on MSN and what we said made me ponder over a few things.

Changes.
Maybe changes are the first step
away from the comfortable sameness
and a plunge forward into the unknown
Maybe the moment right before you're ready to move on
is always when it's hardest to let go.

Everyone will definitely experience changes in life. Both good and bad ones. Of course those good ones will be welcomed, but the bad ones? Or some ppl just prefer to stick to their own comfort zone and wish that the happiness they're experiencing now will never change. But more than often, things don't go the way you want it to be and soon enough, you find yourself being sad that things are not like before.
And who do you blame when these happen? Destiny? God? Your own fate?
Though I sometimes blame myself when I'm in such situations, I've come to learnt that this is part and parcel of life. Changes happen all the time. Human behaviour, their thinkings and feelings.. nothing will ever remain the same way forever.

All things change. An ancient Greek Philosopher once said: "You can't step into the same river twice." Change, inevitably, means loss. Different ppl deal with loss differently. Sometimes with a shrug, and sometimes with constant yearning and a continual search for replacement. The way we deal with loss - changes - is perhaps one of the truly defining of our personalities and how strong our characters are.

It seriously sucks when you're in wonderland, than falling from such heights when changes set in. This is when it all depends on how a person's character is. One may then start grumbling what a cruel life he/she has, and becomes moody everyday. This is what most ppl will do at the beginning. I myself must admit I'm like this most of the time. But at least I only allow myself to be in depression for a few days, after which I try to be happy and make the most out of things. If you can choose between happiness or sadness, of course you go for the happy side. Why frown when it's better to smile. It's all in the mindset. Change your perspectives accordingly and everything will work out fine. There are always things which you can find to smile for.

And then I thought about how fragile a relationship can be. Be it friendship or love. How one mistake can be the source of disputes and then leads to a relationship turning sour. Or maybe one party says something wrong and that's the end of the relationship. It's this fragile and such a pity. Months or years of relationship will be gone just like that. It's also quite saddening to look back and then see how close you all were before, but then it's all gone. That's why we should always cherish relationships and always try to maintain them.

Psychology is such a wonderful thing. Too bad I'll never be able to become a pyschologist. Probably not.

And for Sab [if you're reading this], here's something for you:

When things end,
what matters is not that everything's in pieces.
It's how you decide to carry them.

Meaning:
When things end
What matters most is that you pick yourself up
and make the most our of things.

I'm sure everything will be fine for you. Don't think too much. And whenever you feel like talking, just remember that I'm [and all your other friends] here for you. I understand excatly what you're feeling for I've experienced it before. You're not alone. (:

WOW. This is one loooooong entry. HAHA.