That friday we went to celebrate Timo's birthday. (:


Me wearing Le Dung's guitar shirt. Super gigantic can. Like some sweater. Haha. Played a fool during PW [supposed to be GP period but we had PW before that then GP was in LT. haha.]

Yepyep.
Need to have some pictures around. If not the whole blog will look so wordy.

It's been already a month and 2 days.
Guess I'm finally getting better. At least I hope I am.
Though every now and then there are still heartaches.
But that proves you're still very important. So that's good.

A few days ago this nagging question came to me.
And I was forced into thoughts once again.
And I realise how very afraid of the future I am.
Afraid that things will change. Afraid that I don't even have anything to hold on to.

Because having nothing is a really scary thing.

I can't shake off this feeling that...
you're moving on to a place where I do not and will not understand. With all the leadership commitments, it's something I'll never understand what you all are doing and everything. And you never breathe a word about it.
But then again, what right do I have to know about all these.
Nothing. Gone. A thing of the past.

Now as I take a closer look, your world seems... foreign. So many new pieces have started springing up, without me knowing.
Maybe there isn't even any place for me inside.
Maybe..
Maybe you're better off without me.
That's what I really thought when I see you around in school.

Sometimes I wonder if you still think of me. How often you think about me. If I'm still somewhere in the corner of your mind.
And I wonder if you ever think about the past.
If you ever have the urge to hold my hands.
If you ever felt an overwhelming feel to hold me close again.

Just saying what's in my mind right now.
NOT emo-ing.

I guess I'm really mad if I'm going to say that
I'm still hoping you'll one day say to me this is all a nightmare.
That you never really said all that before.
Or.
Maybe you'll one day say to me that..

Sigh. Only idiots will still hold on to any hope.
And I guess I'm that idiot.

"There can be miracles when you believe."

What's there to believe when there's nothing left to believe in.
Give me something to believe.

On a side note,
what Filza told me today about what you said before really made my day.
I don't know why. It's just v. comforting.
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Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no, it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken

Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight

And I want you to my one and only love.
I<3you
like I always do.