I'm feeling so dead now.
As in. Emotionally dead.

Not coz of promos results. Nothing to do with it.

but
I'm
just
feeling
damn
damn
damn
dead.

Argh. What's wrong with me.
I really think I'm going crazy. One moment the mind is not thinking anything, and the next moment a whole whirlpool of thoughts settle in. To the point that it hurts so much that the brain subconsiously filters out everything and suddenly you can't remember what you were thinking before that. I'm serious. Like sudden memory loss.

And I don't know why I'm crying infront of the com now.
I seriously don't know why.
I feel like such an idiot.
Guess today is just a lousy mood day.

If my mum were to buy me a DS I think I'll be happier. Hahaha.
I shall demand for one. Ummm. Hopefully she'll agree.

And I just realised that
whenever I'm feeling real down,
you just seem to appear.
I MEAN. Seriously. Like poof. There you are.
Like God sent someone to be there for me when I'm feeling horrible.
But well. Can't possibly rely on others so much all the time.
Anyway, thank you thank you thank you.

Oh wells.
One more paper.
I'm going to get promoted.
(hopefully)
All of us must and will.

And Atiqah pointed out sth.
It's so fun liking someone secretly.
HAHAHA.
So maybe maybe maybe I'll let my feelings for YOU grow!
But in the first place I'm not even sure if I really do like you or not.
Maybe it's just a stupid crush.
Arghhh.
Annoying annoying.




I was praying to God that I'll find something useful in the bible and poof this came out. I think I understand what He's trying to tell me.
Everything will turn out fine. (:

And now I'm feeling so sleepy...
Think I'm falling sick. :/