So in the end I took a 45mins bus ride to the airport, did pw for like only an hr then gay made me go parkway with him.

Talked on the bus and he was telling me something.
That was the first time I saw this other side of him.
lol.

And oh. Do you know he actually took out 10bucks from his wallet and gave it to this old man who approached us and claimed that he has no money to eat and that he's starving.
So nice right.

And gay spent like.. 70+ bucks on clothes. Poor me had to stand in the shop like an idiot playing with his O2 phone. Blahh.

And I came home and saw my house packing with my relatives.
Yes they're still here.
So noisy. Doesn't feel like I'm at home at all. lol.
And I just realised I can't stand loud noises.
It puts me to sleep. Seriously.
Stupid WR. It's finally done. I mean. Finally put everything together and made it flow. And I tell you my photoshop skills are like so damn lousy now.

Been blog hopping just now and it seems like friendship issues have been surfacing in almost every blog I went. Actually I only went to 3. HAHA.
And it made me really wonder about this issue.

Friends..
They didn't seem very important in primary school. In fact I think I just breezed through life like that and not rememebering whatever that's happened.
And there came a time when they are very very important to me. Especially during lower sec times. Everyday we'll just play and joke and everything and well, they form majority of my life. Come to Secondary 3 then I realised how different things were. Coz all my friends were like in different classes. And it really made me real moody and everything. Coz things were not the same. I think I sunk into depression that time. Lol. Sounds stupid, but it really affected me quite badly.
Then I learnt how to not care. And slowly you turn into a feelingless person. Not excatly uncaring, but just not as caring as the past.
But then Secondary 4 was quite a nice year. Learnt how to get along well with new friends, and slowly things became good again.
Then again, I just know that I'm not the same person as before.
Like.. something has changed. Maybe it's because of the experiences that make one colder. I don't know.

Come to J1, my first 3 mths is a very very fun one.
Everyday come school slack, crap. Maybe it's like a brand new beginning, and I really don't mind my pae class although we're not VERY bonded. But still, I was happy.
Then come jae.
Beginning was fine.
The middle was a little messy.
And now I don't know what's going on.
I don't mean the class.
I'm okay with the class now. ERM. Trying to be okay with it.
But it's more of the immediate friends.

You know. I realised that if I can choose, I'll choose friends over love.
That is if I can only choose one.
Because after all these, I realised that friends are the ones who will be there at the very end.
When people who promised they'll be there are not there.

Eh wait.
You know what.
I don't know what the hell I'm trying to say.
I'm like damn tired now and I can't think properly.
So please pardon me I don't make sense and I seem to go on and on about nothing.

AND SERIOUSLY.
I THINK MY WRITING SKILLS SUX.
OMG.
Whoever who marked my compo during exams must be wrong in the mind to give me that kind of marks.

Back to the point.
I think the key thing to friendship is.. understanding and accepting.
I don't know why you're thinking that way lah.
But hmm. If you want my view, I think it's redundant to even think that way.
Maybe I don't understand how you feel, maybe I don't see why you're doing that, maybe you think it's the best way out.
SO, if you think that you're happier that way, so be it.
I mean. What can we do right.
But well. If only we can get along like how we used to. Issit that difficult.
Oh wells.
I really don't know what I'm talking.
IN SHORT.
Friends are very very very important to me now.
You know. They brighten up the day and bring joy and laughter to you.
ERM. Depending on who actually. LOL.
So gang, THANKS ALL FOR BEING YOURSELF. (:

Long meaningless post.
Ohman.
Sleep.
I need to sleep.
And well.
I don't know if I wanna dream of YOU or not.
Maybe I will again.
Where are YOU where are you where are you.
I think I'm missing YOU.
Do I?