Zomgg.
I hate it when I start thinking.
Coz all the things will start rushing in.
Like information overloading in a bad way.

And and and.
I still haven't decide what I should do with this crap.
How I should handle it.
I thought of a few alternatives.
But I hope that one will never happen.
But but if one day I really decide on doing that,
then there's no turning back.
More time to think.
I need more time to think.
So you. Pray hard that that one day never comes.
Maybe you should do something to change my mind.

Eh.
You know.
I hate it when something happens and then someone just says a full load of crap which seems so sweet and nice and then they expect you to take it the way they see it and then pretend that nothing has happened.
I can't do that you know.
Maybe if you want to pretend I can keep up with this pretence for like a few times. But deep down, I seriously can't stand this.
It even digusts me to a certain extent.

I'm feeling all sorts of emotions now.
It's so amazing how can someone feel so many things at the same time.
Contradictory feelings somemore.
If I were to die now I wouldn't mind,
Coz I've felt all sorts of things already that would be enough to last me through.

You know I'm hoping against hope.
Hahaha.
I know that somethings won't happen
yet I'm still hoping that it'll happen.
See what YOU're doing to me.

I'm such a weird person. Coz I got all sorts of rubbish thoughts in my head
that even me myself can't decipher them.
I don't even know what I want.
I think it's like this. Yet I think it's the like that.
Someone should just pry open my brain and clear the things out one by one and maybe I'll see what I'm really thinking.
Who I'm really thinking and missing.

Oh wells oh wells.
I'm praying for a miracle.
PUSH - Pray Until Something Happens.
HAHA.
JM, sounds familar eh.