Stupid emo day.
Been thinking a lot.
In life, you gain things and you lose things.
It's like a repetitive cycle.
The same thing goes to getting hurt yourself, then inflicting the hurt itself onto others.
Like a spiral. What goes around comes around.
This is life.



Have you ever felt your significance is so small. That even if you're gone it doesn't really make a difference. Because that's really the painful truth.
Have you ever felt so alone even when you're surrounded by tons of people.
And what's worst is when you still feel alone even with people you're familiar with.

I miss my PAE class. Like seriously.
I miss Stella and Wan Jing, how we used to talk everything and anything and laugh at crazy things. I miss Fad and her nonsense, and our slacking times during PE. I miss the guys like Jia Kai, with his rubbish. I even miss the DHS guys for their lameness in class. Even though we weren't very bonded, you just feel that you belong.

I guess only you can detact the slightest change in my mood. And no matter what, I know you understand how I will. And I really really thank God for that. If not, I don't know how I could ever survive this shit.

But that's life yeah.
No matter you like it or not it's still like that.
Whatever it is, I know God has a plan.

There's a time for everything.
and a season for every activity under heaven

- Ecclesiastes 3:1

My brain is very cluttered. Can't think straight. Don't know what I'm thinking as well. Stupid.