Oooh. It's the weekends finally. (:

Feeling blahhhhh now.
It's just one of those days when you feel downright sian.
Not emo. Just sian.
Maybe I should go play the piano.
Found the scores for that jay chou nice nice song which I still haven't really gotten sick of till now.
Hopefully I won't feel so bleahhhh after that.
It works you know. Especially when I'm angry or anything. I'll just bang bang bang on the piano and it just feels so much better.

Today school was like a total waste of time.
First period maths tutorial. Mr Patrick didn't come. Free period. Then 2 lectures. Last period was GP. Mrs Seng didn't come. So it was like free period also. -_-

I'm sleepy. And it's like 3.40pm only.
So many things to be done.
GP reading. Chem tutorial. [And I still don't really understand the stupid buffer] Econs question. Anymore?

Was reading up on defence mechanisms of the brain earlier on. Coz I remembered I did come across this article about Sigmund Freud. [That was like 2 years ago btw] Can't seem to find it but I found some interesting stuffs.

One of the defence mechanisms is repression.

Repression: The process of pulling thoughts into the unconscious and preventing painful or dangerous thoughts from entering consciousness.

"Freud notes that the motive behind forgetting is similar to that of repression--it is the removal of objectionable material from consciousness. Thus it is often that case that an associated bit of information is also forgotten."
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Okay. The above summarises to one thing. Have you ever at times felt that you can't seem to recall painful incidents of your life. Like one moment you're starting to recall the painful memories and the next moment you find yourself not able to remember anything about it. And it gets so tiring to think. Like sudden memory loss. This is repression. It's like a protective mechanism the brain has to protect your emotions in a way I guess.

But btw, I think repressed memories will tend to show up in your dreams. Coz I think I read before dreams are a way to let out your unconscious thinkings. So you won't go crazy? Haha.
This is how complex the brain is. Psychology is so fun. I really really want to take it up in uni. I even thought of doing a minor in psychology next time. But well. For a practical path, of course I wouldn't take it.

You know. Once you've set your mind in doing something,
you should not keep wavering. So yeah.
The day is finally here.
How did we end up like this.
I have no idea how many times I've said this.
The important thing is not why.
But rather how could I have been so giving, so blind.

And now that it's gone,
it's like it wasn't even there at all.

It's almost a year. The end is near. It's enough already. You've held on enough.

Besides, there are reasons to do so now.
My heart feels peaceful suddenly. I think it's the instrumental I'm listening to. Haha.

Oh wells.
Enough nonsenses.
I've wasted enough time here. It's 4.30pm already!!
Btw, Today is something to look forward to. (:
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